!@#!@$#

Now my MOOD!! Feeling UBER !@@#!@#$%$^%^$&*



I am CONFUSED...

I am TIRED!!!



Someone please guide me along.... ( literally teach me what to do please.)



OMFG!!!!



AGAIN, SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NOT??? I DO NOT WISH TO LET YOU DOWN TOO! :(



I HAD SO MUCH THINGS TO SAY BUT I CAN'T!

LIFE=LOVE+CARRER...



:((((

heuruex :)

New Wallet! gonna take really good care of it man! I got the brown colour one. NICE!!! It been a long time ever since I want to get it....

This year is ending in a few days time... Bad year goes and good new year come!

omg... My room is still in a mess... when mom comes back... there goes the nagging...

gonna do something man....

Yesterday was an adventure day man!!! It was CRAZY!!! Jun Rong and I suppose to went fishing but ended up we went walking discovering the jungle... ( it's a army training ground..) Inside the jungle we saw a cobra.. and my first reaction was JUNRONG.... SNAKEEEE.... wth man.. and both of us stop and stand still.. he say: just go la, we never disturb he wont disturb us.. okay. let's go then... and finally we found a pond! LIKE GOT MANY FISH LA. ya your head man jun rong!!! we go there like freaking feed mosquito man... UR FAULT!!! after awhile we got bored and we went out and cursing swearing the mosquito... Next stop we head to Thomson area... over there we see fishes swimming around and we thought we had a chance to at least catch something but ended up those fishes are smart! LOL... This Sunday we are going to fish again! This time round we WILL catch something as we planned to fish the WHOLE DAY! :)))

Christmas is just round the corner! 1 more hour to go...

I want to do gym!!! but this mean i got to sacrifice something... and can I juggle my time well???

god....

Bon Nuit!!!

Nice! :)

Great day!!

3hour on trainer early in the morning....
camp....
physio...
rehab....
massage!!!!

I love the day! :))))

This week is gonna be a easy week.

Just bought a Bike Tower... and now... OMG... my room don't have space for it... leaving it in the living room now. Mom gonna kill me when she returns back from china for holiday.

Having a car is good!!! transport to anywhere is nothing.. LOVE IT!

I am so dead tired though.... Perhaps is time for me to go to bed!
This week will be a short working week and will be a LONG RELAXING WEEK!!! love it!!
Am gonna wake up tomorrow morning and do some research and save it on my itouch so I can bring to camp and read it....

Bon nuit!

BAD!!!

I cheated myself...... I am a sluttt....

This week of training was SHITTT... BASICALLY = DONT RIDE AT ALL...
my god... like that how to turn pro??? dont say pro... but how to even win a small race?
I feel so shitt man!!!

where did my discipline go to?

I am still considering wheather should I get the bike tower? Is not a something that I NEED BUT A WANT.. ?
Having the URGE to spend some cash.... No Comments...

Tomorrow 3hours again on trainer!! Hopefully I don't bribe myself again.... Onot... I am seriously in deep shit...

My friends please come back soon!!! I miss riding with you guys...

time to sleep....
christmas is coming....

:()

Should I or Should I not...

I am so so so so so so ......... , ... , ..... ,

Cest La Vie....

endless....

nightss....

Dots!!!

Been living on this year for 20 years! Every year seem to past faster and faster and by the time you know, I am already 20year old! Feeling old? Jaymee said you make me feel so old!!! Rolf...

I am OFF from camp today! The feeling of not returning back to camp is like!!! HEAVEN MAN!!! :D

So what have I done for the whole day today?
Back to studio for EBUZZ shoot... It's been long time not seeing Jaymee.. She ask me, : So, how are you going to celebrate your birthday today? I answer perhaps nothing... And she reply aren't you going to get drunk and be happening about it!!??!?!? I laugh... Haha... LOL...

Anyways, I am really getting rusty on my camera skills ya!!!... Oh well, hope that what I had film today are alright! :)

I miss studio's coffee machine!!! Glad that I had them today!!! but still not enough!...

7more month to ORD!!! LOL.... still long ya! can't wait anymore... I miss my OUTSIDE LIFE!!!

Feeling of taking half day off tomorrow and laze at home!!! but... I think don't waste my OFF ba...

OFF to bed man... Anyways, I want to thank you MOM & DAD for the dinner!!! & Raymond for the lunch too!

My WISH is " I will let you know if you want to know!"

Bon Nuit
Affectuez & Manque!!!

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:)

First time riding on roller! First impression: kind of scary!!! It's all about balancing! Will I not fall down by wearing power balance? What a QUESTION?? Apart from my nonsense, this morning I did my workout on the roller... Almost cause a few fall at the start.

Anyways, Tim told me power balance and live strong band actually degrade our performance??

Awesome Monday to me! Morning sleep in camp, afternoon physio and massage! Without say, I rode early in the morning!

I am so tired already! Time to bed! Tomorrow OFF :) woohhoooo...
Studio tomorrow! :)

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Nice day YA! :)

Today's training was totally RUBBISH!

This anit how you train at all! TRAINING ZONE ARE THERE! FOLLOW IT!

Got to drive BMW! OMG!!! power too the max man! :) more to come :))))
anyways, Fyi! BMW is sponsoring our team OCBC SINGAPORE CYCLING TEAM!

time to sleep.... nights my friends...

zzZZzzZZzzzZZZZZzzzz....

:) :(

Had A great ride this morning!

Actually Singapore night life isn't so boring ya.... haha... I rode past St James Power Station and Butter Factory at around 3am and to my surspise those ppl are just coming out and cabbing back home!

I feltt that I had a SINFUL LUNCH!!! ate at least 6 slice of pizza, chicken wings, wedges, pesi!!! OMGGGG!!!! ( I am A FAT-SILM BOY! )
I have been weighing myself everyday.. Luckily I didn't gain weight!

Perhaps Nature will take the course.... Let it be... Let it be...

Christmas is coming!!! My BIRTHDAY ALSO COMING!!! :) but oh well... this year will be a very SAD and Lonely Birthday.. :( everyone will be off to training camp this sunday.... oh welll... life is like this... accept the facts...

Rest day ya!

Rest day!!! Yeah!!! A day where everyone look forward to. :)

Had a long physio session with claire. :) follow by massage! :)
Now my legs feeling more refreshed! :)

Training well!!! Am happy :)

Let's HOPE tomorrow I go Medical Centre and return back with a GOOD NEWS!!! It better be!!

Am I too self-conscious on my food intake? I think I am! Everytime I finish my meal I would think "OMG, what I had ate just now was so SINFUL!" I am getting FATTER!!...
I am going to start weighting myself everyday!
If I am knowledge enough I will weight every food before I consume... dots.... (That's way too extreme!)

Am I diligent enough? I hope I am!...

Time now is 1902... Time for bed... going to wake up early for training tomorrow..
Sleep Early, Wake Up Early! Let's practice this!

Bon Nuit

what a joke!

Finally! back home! I miss my bed and pillow!!!

Had a great ride this morning. but here comes a joke!
I got lost at SHETON WAY (AGAIN!) oh my.....

The joke started off 2 and a half year ago. Where I got lost in sheton way after having a water break from our ride. I remember clearly. Upon reaching the junction when I missed a turn where Jun rong and Paul tan rode off, I asked Lemuel "So does this way lead to Mt Faber? (Which is not true!! that way does leads back Mt Faber! Lemuel Lee YOU BLUFF ME!!) He answer me NO! then I say okay. I faster turn back and chase after Jun rong and Paul. After turning here and there. It seems that I am still stuck in the maze.. After so many try, I gave up. (FLAG FOR A CAB!) what a JOKE I got myself.... and till now... my mates are still laughing at me!!! LOL MAN...
How did I got lost at sheton way again? Today there was a Standard Charted Run. So they close the road.... I thought I can make my way towards Brash Basah or Victoria street instead but ended up I went merry go round at Coller Quay Rd.... Lucky enough that I managed to find my way out and continue my ride safely and no worries!!

How to get lost in Singapore??? haha.. I have no idea how to answer you this question.... :D

Rode 6hours.... feeling very satisfied after I reach home! 6hours riding alone! boring though but I like it!

Mel, I have something to tell you... My birthday is coming!!! and I think you know what is my wish! get back to me soon!

okay... time to hope on to my bed! camp tomorrow.... Boring....

Bon Nuit
Affectuex & Manque

:( :)

Duty on weekend doesn't mean to be a bad thing at all... It actually let me reflect myself, clear my mind and let my body rest..

During the rest time, I think! I ask myself... Answer: I don't know what to do.... Should I or should I not?

Live to ride or ride to live?
Everything is achievable!

All my recent post are so EMO!! I hate it!!!

Change... Change.... Change.... Change.... Change to be happy!!!!
I want to be a happy boy!!!!

I miss my bicycle!!!

SAD!!!

Do you know that you are very very tired?!?!?!
You are breaking down soon!!!
Your body won't be able to take it anymore!!!

I AM really MENTALLY AND PHYSICAL TIRED AND DOWN!!!
I feel so PRESSURISE!!! Really. I can't take it anymore....

Could you help me?
I feeling so helplesss....


nights....

BAD DAY!

I am really having a BAD DAY!

If the msg were sent by you! I TELL you! I will cry man... lol...

WHAT A DAY!!! :(

?!?!?!

Am I stupid?
Am I navie?

nights... :(

I am HUNGER for More WINS!!!

Today's Team Time Trail was a great one!!! & We won! :)

Look! Who's up there? haha :P

Jun Rong and me with our sponsor bike! POLYGON! :)
We are the handicapped team!!! :)

Great race to end my racing season of 2010!!! I am hunger for more wins!!!but I still feel very unfit & I AM FAT!!! Can't wait for next block of training season to come!! ( which is like 2 more days.. )

Despite we won 1st, I still felt that we could clock a even faster timing! :) Through today's race I felt that I must really learn how to pace myself during the race! Pacing yourself plays a very important role man!

I am so UPSET!!! EVERYONE IN THE TEAM ARE GOING FOR DECEMBER TRAINING CAMP! 12-23!! OMG!!! SIAN TO THE MAX!!! someone save me please! :( Don't leave me alone in singapore! Bring me along!!!!!!!! :(

I have something for you as I think YOU derseve it alot! and, something to share with you! Yesterday night though I was very tired already but when I lay on my bed I couldn't fall asleep! It had been a long time since I am so happy till I can't fall asleep! I hope there's more to come!!! :)

Tomorrow still got camp!!! sian!!! Monday BLUES!!! luckily tomorrow is a rest day from training.. I am so tired from today's race...

Bon Nuit everyone!
sweet dreams...

Bad day :(

Lab challenge and skin fold..... :(

Wasn't satisfied at all because I lose to HO JUN RONG!!! It's terrible.. I can't believe it with my own eyes.. I even lost to him on our skin fold!!! Terrible!!! I am like... Oh my!!!! I am FAT!!!

Taking so many things into consideration... :(

I want and hope next block of training, my watts are increased!!!

Bon nuit

Updates?

(It's atrocious to me!)

Coincidence? Yeah! maybe fate! :) this is just only the start, more to come! :)

I had a wish! I want to ...... ... .... .. .. ........ .... .... ! Please grant me! :)

This Sunday TTT!!! I am dong the men's duo with Jun Rong... Start list out too. There's only 9 team in the men's duo so cannot lose man! Our start time is 9.10am. Wish us luck! :)
Apart from that I need someone to help me take photos.... Sarah won't be free.. you also cannot make it... hmmm... who else?

Nowadays, I am feeling so sleepy! why?

Next week I am going to start back mine usual riding route to my aunt's house. In additional, I will start my training early in the morning and ride back home at night. That depends on my training schedule too. Let's hope there's some changes on my watts! I want to push HIGER & POWER watts!

well, some updates for you!

training camp 12-23 december.... ( which I don't think I am going.. ) :(
training everyday! ALL DAY LONG!! ( I love to train! )

Bon Nuit...
I can't wait to ride on my bike now! ( I am CRAZY)!!!!

Changes for better?!

I used to think thing very straight forward but after which reading up some articles on how to improve my cycling it somehow impressed and tell me on how much those small little insignificant things I didn't bother or miss at all actually may turn out to help boost up my physical performance. From how my riding posture is, to how effective each of my pedaling stroke that drive down through the crank to the wheels would helps and affect my performance..


Not just only how much effort, time or whether am I riding correctly put things as what it should be. It's actually to the extreme of how your daily life is spend. Like how you stand, sit, sleep. Whatever you would do in daily life you would never miss your MUSCLE! The most important thing a sportsman would always look out for and never let those things goes wrong.


Cycling is just a hobby. But to me I want to bring myself to the level of being pay professional and make myself a well-known cyclist.
You might think that I am just being atrocious and naive! But at least I had this mind-set and I will strive hard towards it!

Bon Nuit

Dumb!

I feel so DUMB!!! Am I? Yes, I am! Dumb Boy!

It's been awhile since I last blogged.. It feel so empty and lonely in here..

After all I thought I was a strong boy.. Looking back... I was all the while inside my snail shelf. I didn't learn anything... A setback that I wouldn't ever overcome it... I am just a weakling..

How is my cycling coming along? I feel I am shit... Literally shit!!! Is not my training plan gave me shit... My training plan is real "awesome" thanks to my coach Frankie! The shits I am receiving is from MYSELF!!! I am not pushing myself enough!

When will the gap be resolved?

I shouldn't even post this post! I am physically and emotionally tired and down!
Am I just been atrocious?

volonte vous venir retour?
je am en esperant pour I' mieux.

salut!

whats up? I have no idea where to start???

Went for review on my wrist. SO far everything seems alright. Just to confirm everything 2 weeks later I will be scheduled for Computed Tomography Scan. Anyway, Good new was the doctor had given me green light to start back on bicycle on road! but meanwhile, I think I should still ride indoor just in case I fall down and there goes my wrist man...

Today's lab training was awesome to me! Finally I am back to shape but still lack of endurance and strength.
Sunday National ITT?? How?? any chance to bring home something?? I doubt so man... It's been awhile ever since I last win in junior caterogy.

Last saturday family dinner at ikea. After that we went to shop and bought myself pillows. :) Sunday we went to taka to shop for TV and we bought a 42" Full Led Flat Screen home and it come with good deals like $100 best vocher which we spent it on a new vacum cleaner and $50 Ntuc voucher and 1 year free MIO TV package! Thanks to my uncle as he recommended us to his friends who work there.It's been awhile ever since my family out to town area... oh well, Weekend was well spent to me!!!

Alamak.. I still left with lot of things undone man!!! SHIT!!!! someone motivate me lei...

I will turn in early today and wake up early for my 2hour ride in the morning before I head off to camp. which means 3.30 up??? Holy!!! I will try my best... will try to blog more tmw.

Bon Nuit
affectuex

back :)

Salut!

Been busy with lot of stuffs and still BUSY with lot of stuffs. :(

Let's start with Tour de Bintan! Awesome trip! Congratulation to the team as they had bought back the Yellow,Green,Podak jersey! I was the team manager for this team and it's also my first time doing it and I was very nervous too. It was a very tiring job as you have to make sure and plan so many things beforehand (before,during,after) Can't afford for any screw up at all.

I am back to camp too. Camp seem to be so boring to me ever since I had 2 month + MC. :(
staying inside office doing nothing = waste of my time, so went back to ground work and WALK the ground. :))) 2 days of walking the ground became troubleshooting this vehicle with lot of faults. First became a tool boy after half day seeing staff mu & master tang dianogsing and troubleshooting it. nothing sloved. Cannot tahan anymore. Is time for me to unleashed some brain cells. True enough I am right and everything slove!!! :) Hee:)

Cycling??? I am back!!! I been training hard man!!! I have been putting lot of efforts in all my training and I hope all these will paid off in time comes! It will!!! with the heart you put in everything you do will be shown in time comes!!! :) Frankie's training is tough but achievable!

Next friday will be the key result to how my operation has progress.. I really hope the bone will be joined back by that time.. MADNESS... Well, hope everything goes smoothly as it suppose to be! :)

Some updates to everyone as well, OCBC Team kit will be for sale soon! SGD60 for the jersey, SGD60 for the bib and SGD115 for the full kit. Please support us! more details will be post on our facebook and blog soon! :)

Bon Nuit
affectuex & Maque

Getting back to track!

wild thoughts running through my mind.

I likes to train hard and race hard. I love mountains and dislike descending.

In a training/race you deny all aches and pains because you have to in order to finish it. It's a self-abuse sport.

I wouldn't care if I won't finish the race, I would tear the legs off the other riders in the field to get results! It's because If I would to get anywhere, I am going to do it myself, because no one is going to do it for me.

This came across my mind. "If I live, who is it I intend to be?"

I am pissed off with myself. What could I done and been for the last 3 years in this sports?

Having a proper training schedule now there's no EXCUSE I am not to follow it. DISCIPLINE is the key to success! Next season is THE SEASON!

Really can't wait to be back on road with my bicycle again. :( Claire, Please heal my wrist with some special power.

Accueil

Accueil,

It's very meaningful.

To let go isn't to forget. not to think about or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy or regret. Letting go isn't winning, and it isn't losing. It's not about pride, and it's not about how you appear, it's not about obsessing or dwelling on to past.
Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts. It doesn't leave emptiness, hurt or sadness. It's not giving up or giving in. Letting go isn't about loss, and it isn't defeat. To let go of something is to cherish the memories, to overcome and move on. It's having an open mind and confidence in the future.
Letting fo is accepting. It's learning. It's experiencing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that once made you cry, laugh, love and grow. It's about all that you had and all you still have.
Letting go is having the courage to accept change and the strength to keep moving. It's growing up. Realising that a heart can sometimes change and it can also be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, clear a path and set yourself free.

Thank YOU!

My mind cannot think of anything else but to just accept it and learn. I will continue this post someother time.

Bon Nuit

There's so much things running throug my mind... SO MUCH MUCH!!!
PRE-PRO-POST!

Plans after ORD are all settled!! NO DOUBT!

Cycling??? Back on trainer. Luckily with the powertap that motivated me back riding on trainer. Kind of upset for some reasons.. well, that's how our life is. "CEST LA VIE"
Dinah will be doing her World Championship Time-Trail tomorrow in MELBRONE. wishing her all the best with all the lucks! May her bring Singapore proud! Bless her :)

Life??? same.. same... everyday life is a learning process in me. So much, I will want to return back to the past! VERY MUCH. I am sure you would want to. You misses my surrounding family and friends. That applies to me too... :(

I really HATE myself... In so much things that I have done... this post is getting emo man... :( forget it.. zzZZZzzZZ

Somehow I will just hope to post every part of what i go through in my life to you. Am sure you would want to sit in and read it.

Bon Nuit
affectuex & Manque

Nice!

Am happy today! Because 1 powertap wheel managed to be savaged! :) but 1 died. 2 more can't detect the power and speed.. :( Going to strip the died one and see what I can do to the other 2...

Am trying new stuff on your itouch:) haha. but unsucessful... will try again tommorrow :)

Somehow I am just sad!!! Not just upset... but literally sad.. and I know this year I won't be able to travel oversea but still hoping for mircales from army... :( Fish My Life...

Tired liao... Want to go sleep and will conitune repairing the powertap tommorrow :)

Time too KOON!!!!!!! Remember!! Discipline Please!!!

Bon Nuit
Manque

Boredom yet so many things undone :(

Sigh.. Big Sigh... :(

Didn't manage to do edit those reports.. :( But I did something else...

Take a look at Ocbc bank Singapore Cycling Team race photos. Stay tuned and enjoy the photos.
Here the link : http://picasaweb.google.com/103759464043076938585

Another Marriage propose coming up :) Storyline: Director is going to hold a audition in a studio. Cast will be asked and act on what the telepromter prompts and here come this special line and action follows. Would you marry me and let me take care you for life and there the director comes taking out a bouquet of roses and knee down to the loves. :) Such a lovely sence to be shot by me:) Hee:)

Well, this is what I can do at home beside recovering: finish up the reports ASAP, start on the riders profile questionnaire soon, look up powermeters, read up more articles on cinematographer (lighting techniques), getting more inspiration on how life can be spend wisely. :)


You and I by Celine Dion (just for u)
Bon Nuit
Affectueux & Manque

Blog blog blog

Been busy doing reports! See liao want to faint :(

Am asked to do the team Rider Profile :( more and more things to do Liao :( Anyways, I am getting in and having fun doing all this.

Just created Picasa web ablum for the team. Uploading all the races photos in progress :) will link u guys once everything is settle nicely :)

Had home visit by staff ts & Zhen Wei. Got me $20 worth of HL MILK. Haha:) thanks!

Tomorrow MA... Sian.. Waste time go see doctor again..

Loving my itouch to the max now!!! Got new theme that makes my whole itouch looks so cool. Should printscreen upload it soon!

That's how I am now going through a boring life everyday... Staying home.. See bicycle! Bicycle see me!

Bon nuit

JUST FOR U!

Here you goes as promise :)
Don't mind for the lousy quality. ( I MIND ALOT ACTUALLY.)

If I would have a DSLR or digital camera :(

I try something stupid actually while taking these photos.... I wanted to create a ray effect using my bicycle light. but ended up fail... not bright enough.. maybe install photoshop lightroom and edit it. haha:) or at least a DSLR then bring down the F.stop.

Will be nice with a ARRI 300w at the side lighting up the wardrobe..

This one colour temperature too warm.. will be nice to have DEDO 150w creating some highlight on some objects.

WS-wide shot.

If I have any chance to own all the wheels!!! WOOTS..

Finally had wall mount. Soon I must bring this wife out to ride. I must say, this bicycle meants alot to me. It's been collecting dust after you last rode it. :( He misses you lots. :(

Been eyeing on powermeters. SRM or POWERTAP? SRM so expensive and plus the servicing time so long.. POWERTAP cheaper but comes to racing how? if build on a training wheel then racing cannot use.. Anyways, I not PRO use any wheel to race no different one. So POWERTAP better choice. Faster save money..

Went togoparts forum. Go there see see for MTBs.. but all not nice leii... AIYA, no money of course not nice la. No matter how nice it is!

Well, in life there's Pro & Cons. CEST LA VIE!

Been so bored at home and sleeping lately 3am, Seeing those reports on my desktop really gonna drive me crazy! 2011 will be a big year for my team!!! It will be very crucial for the team too. Results will play a very big part by then. I can't wait to faster serve finish army and off to my cycling dreams. :( Going to book appointment with Dr Comac and rehab in SSC tommorrow plus meet up with Frankie and discuss what my training plans are like for the rest of the year to next year Le Tour de Langkawi.

I am starting to love blogging. :) I must faster recover well.. My bicycle is all up waiting for me to go riding with them again! Speedy recover please.. I really miss riding on my bicycle alot.. :(

Endless Love
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIIb_4cSafs&feature=related

Affectuex & manque

blogging time!!!

It's been awhile since I last blog.

Tonight's sky looks beautiful to me! It's because of a call! Well, I guess what's past is already past. Look forward and there will be more things for us to encounter in life. So much I say, but down bottom the roots there still memories kept in there. I am gald that you still remember some of the things. Thank You!

Well, what had I been up lately? rotting at home! Eat, Sleep, Play Computer game." o.o had a new computer desk and a wardrobe. :) " Something new to keep me motivated at home... I am so damn bored... :( BIG SIGH!! I want to return to camp soon!!

New York Academy????? 60,000 A Year!!! SO COSTLY!!! Don't say about cost, looking me at this state I don't think I would even want to study but maybe for A CERT!?!?!?

I had so much to blog but all got to be kept at a low profile...

Recieve a couple of mails from Junrong.. God... the Race Reports... GG=Good Game.. ended back to me.. Gosh... Killing my brain cells again man.. :( something to start off tommorrow morning.
Had lots of Magzines on how to teaches how to light out a scene. there's even more like creating a scene on Iron Man 2. Big Thanks to Raymond who borrow me these stuff.

ohmy.. It took me 1hour to blog a few paragragh of lines. failure... time now 2am.. am OFF to bed now.

Lifehouse - You And Me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ac3HkriqdGQ

Bon Nuit
affectueux and manque

I am REALLY BORED at HOME!!!

FREAK!!!

2nd day after my operation done!
I remember before I enter the operation room I told CG when is my turn??!! Can't wait to faster get it done and for all. (the main reason I want to get it done asap is because I need a confirm PERM status from ARMY!! another reason is I need to take a break and recover my sleeping time:P I was the 1st patient to go in. :) and my usual character cracking jokes with cg and nurses before my operation. Finally, laying on the operation bed. feeling very cold. heart rate was at 74bpm at the moments. nurses trying their best to find my vain to insert the needles to put me to sleep. after 5mins of trying, there i goes.. ZzzZZZzzzZZzzzZZzz.. :)

The next min when I woke up I am already in the ward. If I didn't remember wrongly the nurses woke me up and ask me weather if I am able to move to the bed and after that seeing CG stood in front of the bed there goes me sleeping again.

Woke up a quite a few times. Went bad to sleep a few times too. I can't remember what i did though... just wake up and went back to sleep was what i think i did. And Jun rong came despite me knowing him calling me, he still managed to find out my ward and bed. Because he's a regular customer over there. :)P

I thought I will be able to discharge before 3 so I start complaining till around 5 I am told by a junior doctor saying. (okay, you may discharge.) I was like!!! Can't you come eariler to say this 4word? Change to my home clothes and getting ready to discharge. just about to stand out and walk to the wheel chair I felt so dizzy and pain on my hip. The nurse came and advise me to consume the medicine and take a nap first. And she started saying you keep on talking to your friend and not sleeping how to go home of course you feel weak la.... LOL..

What a day spend there. Luckily got this good Buddy CG to be there!! Thanks So Much Buddy! In any case I still want to thanks you for what you had did. BIG THANK YOU!

actually spending hours at home resting aint as good as what you thought. It kinda makes me feel so bored apart from sleeping at home. Listening to music kind of makes me feel like turning off the player and go to sleep. Maybe Time to buck up in my life. read more story book to improve my english, newpaper to gain more knowledge and updates on what's happening to our world, more time on internet to see what i can buy on? haha:P Craving for a new keyboard. Research tommorrow!

A very good comment. Say already dont listen, listen already dont understand, dont understand dont want ask, ask already dont want do, do already made mistakes, make mistakes dont admit, admit already dont want change, change already not happy, not happy dont want say, what's more you want me to do?

Time to go to bed... feeling tired already.. another day to look for tommorrow.. update tmrw again.


BON NUIT

FEAR!

Sigh...

Watch youtube regarding how wrist surgey works...

I am so freaking scared man.. :( :(

how much I would want to have mmmmmmm.....

off to bed and to the surgey...

:(

nights :(

Long Post!!!

It's been sometime not posting anything.....

Well, what can i say? This is how life goes...

Good and Bad things... Cest La Vie!

Had a lousy ride on saturday! I had too much high expectation on myself and to the others. The whole ride doesn't feel like the ride I am suppose to ride on or to train for.. It just feels like SHIT to me and I can't tolerate myself riding at the pace which I didnt meet my ways of training criteria. Maybe/ Or I am just wrong... Which It just result in how I am stuck at the zone where no matter how much and hard work put it, it's still no imporvement made.. :( :( :(

Woke up LATE this morning AGAIN!!! IT'S THE WORD "LATE AGAIN". shitt... hate it hate it hate it... :( went rushing like hell getting my bottle fill up and grabbing some SIS bars and off to 0830 Ride. rode the other direction to meet them halfway as I am already LATE!!! I hope this will be my last time waking up late for ride!! :( Went to watch YOG mens open road race.. we reach there just in time to watch the finishing only as everyone knows how singapore traffic system is like... JAM here JAM there... Jam till we fed up and just park somewhere on the payment path and just walk over... Watching the winner's country flag flying up high in the air.. having asking myself. Will I have a chance to bring Singapore to glory and carrying the flag flying up high in the air too? I want to.. it's easy to say.. but it's how much hardwork and effort you put in brings you up there!

I am going for my wrist operation this thursday... Can't wait... but having fear too... having thoughts of myself on the operation bed, waiting for the doctor to come. and the equipments lay nicely beside me.. DOTS!!! It's just freak me out..

I really hope everything goes according to my plans. TDL my next aim and goal.. Though I know the training time is short to come in time for the race. With what I had plans in mind, everything should goes well with my determination, hardwork and discipline comes in.

Well, It's going to be an OFF SEASON for me!!! :)) Time to make use of this time to recover well and start planning how my training plan come in with Frankie.

Bon Nuit
Sweet dreams

Monday BLUEsssssss

What a day! What a weekend! :((((((

Making new friend is hard, Losing a friend is even harder!
I really hate this feeling!!! Please stop it!!! I am so tired of this!!!

I am feeling so stress up, fed up, disapointed, depress, mentally down... I can't think of anything.. I had so much things to do and complete but.. all stuck here.

How much I want back my discipline.. Keeping myself on form.. Riding 4 to 5 hours every weekend is really not enough for me.. I need to ride 5 to 6 hours instead! I feel like really shit now... SHITT!!! 2 days late for training in a row! I didn't even heard my alram ringing.

I miss Sunday dinner with the team. I really miss it... the day, the people, the dinner, that moment where laughters are there. In a way, I was quite dissapointed too.. Hope next time you could make yourself free and be there with us...

Bro, You do not need to tortured yourself in any ways. Is really no point and it's BBY! Please be back to yourself and stop making people around you so worried about you. From your family to MJ and to your friends!

All this while there's so much things bothering non-stop! I really need a break man!!!

CEST LA VIE! :(

Wanted to go for an early morning ride! but... it rain... So when on sleeping till 9plus. Woke up, wash up, and off to training! :)

4hours ride again! halfway through my ride I went to Athlete's Circle to get an Cadence meter for my bike! So to make sure I am not stupidly training for 4 hours. Well, I need a computer system to fix on my bike. :) was so excited with that small little new toy... so get it fixed on my bicycle straight after I pay the money... had some problem and found out that the battery was flat so get it change straight, and back to mounting on to my bicycle. thought after changing e new battery everything will goes well. but unexpcetedly after getting out of the shop and went on with my training I found out my watch wasn't reading and it kind of irrate me off, so went to a bus stop and see what i can do with it but nothing happy.. kind of give up and continue cycling.. telling myself go home then fix it again.. no point wasting time trying and neglect on my training program. :( Now transfering today's data into my computer! and, got a big headache now! how do i merge both exercise together? going to leave for tommorrow night when I am back to camp..

anyways, halfway through my ride. Dinah saw me and shouted arcoss the road.. haha. anyways, thanks DINAH. let's train hard and aim for our goals!

Went back to studio to get the laptop and also to shoot.. Shoot cancel so I went on trying to repair the laptop... I love changelling things but it must be within my abiblity still.. haha :) and to my genuis mind. I found out the solution.. haha. I am so happy :) haha.. I anyhow one.. very rubbish of me. :P

Tomorrow back to camp!!! :( How am I going to train 4 hours again??? SIGH!! I hate .... Please grant me off.... Or ORD tomorrow even better.

CHI CHI LET's go MTB !!!!

okay..

Bon Nuit
sweet dreams..

Nice :)

Surprisingly!! I am back on track with my training! even witout my team mates you can still see me training alone under the hot sun! Well, I am Happy with myself! 4 hours ride everynow and then. Maybe that is because I got a new heart rate montior! Finally, and now with that I am able to download everyday's data to training peak and study it. Hope this will be the spirit from me everyday!

AND TO MY SUPRISE!
I woke up this morning and found out it was lunch time! must be yesterday went out too late. Got summom for not putting the damn coupon! $30... Anways, put that aside.. went out with Jun rong, Tim and Sarah for Supper. Supper for beancurd at thomson. Nice! had a great chat with them too. will make this chit-chat session happen often soon! waiting for chi chi to be back too!

Wanting to go out for supper again badly... but lemuel can't make it and since I am way tired to drive too.. So stay home instead and blog. Haha..

Long weekend man!! NICE!! Love it!

bon nuit
sweet dreams.

Lots of things going through my mind... Need to be sort up!

Gald to have you as a buddy! Thanks lots!

Bon Nuit... Felt asleep halfway.. Going to continue my sleep now.

Vex & Stress

If I had a choice.

I do not wish to know about it...

Disappointment...
Troubles....
Worries...
burden...

Had been trying to stay optimistic...
how much long can i still hold on to???

I am going down soon....

I am sick....
Health getting bad...

Sore throat...
Slight Fever....
Fatigue....
Wrist Pain....
..........................

God, Please help me!

Life?!?!?

I know what I want in life. but i am not doing anything...

equipment, chances , opportunties are there for me, yet I am still not doing anything.

it rain this morning and i didn't went out riding, just bring out the trainer and cycle for less than 20mins and i am off...

my mentality is just as weak as whom i thought i was.

seeing my mates lemuel doing so well and me just being riding everywhere making no plans for future...

food that i consume nowadays is so SINFUL to me....

how much I say now will it be turn to action?

Someone help pull me up from my dream... I do not want to be in there anymore...

I had enough of off season...

I have alot of issuses coming along..
I am very upset on it..

I want to be the best out of the best. Not only to defeat others but the real opponents is in me!

bon nuit

nothing is too late!

Something I odd/should have read and understand you. Nothing is too late. If we would open up ourselves, that's the biggest step to do and your already halfway through the game! No one has the right to laugh or despise you. Because everyone makes mistakes!

Harsh Words said by others are meant to learnt and to reflect on it. We alway Learnt things from the hard way... Or not we won't be having these problems.

Yes I admit that sometimes I am very going overboard on somethings.. Small little things can seem to be cumlative and after that voclanno begins! But that life! CEST LA VIE! We learnt from it and don't repeat the mistake. We shouldn't whine on it and keep negative thoughts. It seems easy to say it out but how Many people are there doing that, the same mistakes! When times passes and to think back about it you will find yourself stupid. When do you want to make your life and others in a difficult situtation?

Life is a very simple and could be a happy journey to walk on!

I had always wanted to post this! But can't find any time so had it pre blog during my transporation time.

I Want you to learnt from it. Not just see and ( i c u c I c u )! Understand it!

I might be a straightforward person it's because if there's no one to tell you this I will tell you. You can hate me but for you to think back and learnt from those things and lead towards the right path in life. I think it's worth doing it!

From what I see and read and observe from you. You know the problem but you aren't sloving it.

CEST LA VIE

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Must POST!

Stay up so late just to post this blog!!


It's 1.20am.



Went for a moive (AFTERSHOCK).

A very emotional disaster story shot.
How a mother was forced to make the most difficult decision in her life. And therefore someone who need to be scarifice.

It's a must to watch! Something that no one will ever one to .. .. .

Camp!....!....!

CEST LA VIE!

Complicated. Something that must be changed and learned from it.

Your a great friend to me.

When you think you wouldn't want to hurt your fellow familes/mates/people around you, you will eventually still hurt yourselves and others. When you are sad. people around you will be affected badly too. I had it once before and thinking/refelcting back at it. It was a foolish act.

"Only when you lose something, you will get to know the feeling of loss."

Good nights my friends

Drastic changes?

Life!!! Cest la vie...

The more U LIED... the more in returns you will get back... is up to us to decide our route in life!

I need new toys!!! that's where things inspire me and motivate me!!

there's not a need for me to do that at all....

I can STIR things up so badly till you won't be able to face the facts...

I am sitting down to see free show happening in few months time. CEST LA VIE!

Brother... we talked about it this afternoon... haha! we will see man....

never under estimate someone u know.... or when time come you will be crying for help...

the simplest mens in the world are the most cunning ones..

Is a very random post I post.... No idea why i did this... but is what all i have/want to say!

Life is a never ending game...

Finally I have time to being able to blog again!

Passed TP. Damn happy! transport shouldn't be a problem to me again! been driving around too :) Happy :)

Ran 8km... Clock 35mins.... Legs very sore now! walk got problem but riding no problem. next time I wont want to run in camp again!!!

Went for buffola wing again!

Something that I am happy about! "I love it when things get back to normal! when Family is Family again! :)" Sometimes boundaries in life are there for us to learn and let go!

Let get back to a topic on Life is a never ending game.... How should I blog about this?

1. Training ???

Had I been training? NO!

2. What had I been doing?

I don't even know!!! waiting for time to come...

3. Motivation???

Inspire me something???

4. Goals???

yet to have...

Something to noted...

whatever we humans speaks or do, nothing is able to compare to a "Action speaks louder than words!"

I want to be the best in whatever I am in! but without your own strong determination things won't happen...

What would I want from myself now???

Bye...

Happy!!! :)

Finally! All my efforts paid off! To be realistic is "all my money paid off!" :P

1 down from my TODO list...

next will be my operation!

My training will be resume shortly. Time to start back all my training... if others can why not? all i need to do is to wake up even early to ride and ride after work and be home late. Mileage...

I do not wish to post this but it seems rather pissess me off....

Human are stupid creatures... they are clever when luck come in with them...
i do not wish to name them... figure yourself...

for example.... ppl in singapore are very KAISU... very competitive... but competitive in the wrong way... if you want to be in it... you better learn smart and figure out the ways to strike your opponent down, and prove them your GOOD.... this will make others respect you! or not.... just keep your ******** quiet... "EXAMPLE: Sportsmanship, you win it with pride and make ppl respect you!" Ppl won't forget about the bad things you did... remember it..........................

another thing that piss me off is.... AVIODING... aren't you just gulity over what you are doing or having now? think about it... if I wouldn't say those things to you.... do you think you will even reply me??? save your excuses or reasons.... humans are the same... If someone offer to help. you should be more than happy to reply and also to save more trouble for them.... understand it and not ranting it... It make sense....

like what I have mention before in others post... human being are selfish creatures... some learn.. some dosen't.... if you get it you will learn things through your way easily... or not.. you are just stuck in between like a dumb creature... which I am still in someways...

Everything we do have pros and cons.... is how you want things to be and how you make them happen!!! follow your means....

Boone nuit

dreams depress??

Does dreams still ever come true? It wasn't what I want or wish to have but it seems to be giving me uncertain doubts... It wasn't just a one time things but occured 5 to 6 times till now.. I am very confuse and unsure. Please guide me along.

I feel so depress at this moment in my life... Tomorrow is the day... I really hope that all my efforts paid off.

Yesterday night was my first time ever feeling so down in these few months.. It just strike me down.. The feeling that no one would wants to feel it..

I just did something silly.... I am so tired.... I need my bed...

Nights

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day passes so fast

everything files....

2 more days....

when your so busy times passes so fast....

camp tomorrow...

shit....

I am so so so blank in my mind...

I have so much things to do...

but I am stuck!!!

all i do is to just wait for time and things to come...

I am not doing anything!!!

I am feeling very empty...

I needs someone to talk to....

someone whom I can share my life to...

again.... All bad touches to the end... I have been listening to it for more than a couple of times...

Sleep is the best... nothing to keep me thinking..

nights...

the emmmmo night....

the moon without the stars accompany...

all good things come to the end!

Been busy these few days.. Had actually no idea what to post too.. Knowing that you had start a new relationship. Knowing that this day will come in time too. I have no say to myself.
It ended and it came again.. Time .. ...... . . I am sorry.

So what have I busy on? Driving lesson. 3 more days. Please bless me!

I had neglect on my cycling alot... Frankie spoke to me while I was having lab test yesterday.. He's really sort of dissapointed in me alot... having such a great VO2 that my body inherit but the mind or the heart not going is useless as compared to someone who has a lousy VO2 but he/she pushing and training hard for it! This is a real wake up call for me!!! Anyways, I really can't believe on my VO2 without these serious training nowadays! How did I have it or do it? :) Who knows? God knows :)

Had outdoor shoot with hoods production again! My most favourite production house! The most comfortable working style to work with. On the other hand studio was having music video shoot too. Royston Tan the director. Lunch was catered for over 50 persons, so imagine how many crews and talents for the production. They rented bird's production lorry too. My gosh! The production lorry was way bigger than what I thought. The equipments inside was ..... Whooaaa!! Met this girl too. A camera assistant working fulltime in this industry.. It's kind of... You know girls fulltimer on production set. Hard to believe but know it exist. Good! Anyway, I can't reveal anything much regards the music video. It's for private viewing. Okay. Nothing more or not there goes my big mouth!!! O, something to share? next week raymond will be off for 2hours during the shoot and I will be the one shooting! GOD!!! exciting but scary.. been really very rusty with camera. I will do my very best to light and shoot!! :)

I am really in love with the song. All good things come to he end. Flames to dust. Lovers to friends.

Need to koon now. Tomorrow driving at 7am. After that to studio for shoot! Knockout!!! :)

chi chi and tim... when will you guys be online again?? :)

boonnee nuit!!

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short post!

Everything I want to say in this post are fill in this 2 song.

All Bad Touches comes to the end!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6FR8sKd-3pQ

I fell in love with this song so much! am crazily in love with this song!

How six song collide
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3JKKl95Ttrc&feature=related

Slowly appreciate and understand how life is.
Don't waste it....
Is very meaningful to me!
It's really beautiful!
have a long way to go and to experience things that aren't discover yet.

Is so coincidence. What can I say? Please go for a long break. Sense it, Feel it.

A meaningful ride and day to me. Thanks Auntie Pohlin and Winston!

6 more days!!!

bonne nuit

:(

Is my fault.

I am sorry.

hurts :(

Have nothing to say...

It really hurts...

Really....

A hush remark....

No one knows myself better than I do....

Something that I couldn't believe....

Drastic changes....

Reflection should be done....

Something you will regret forever...

Something that no one can control....

Think about it....

I gave it so much....

It hurts especially from you....

A deep scar left on me by you...

It should be an happy ending but because of a word....

UNDERSTANDING...

:( :( :( :(

It's really hard to come by...

not easy to get over someone u cherish and live so much for.

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Point Post

I can't believe I am rotting at home...

I am real lazy...

I am not motivated at all...

I can't believe on what I am doing nowadays....

after 12 it will be 12 july 2010....

2 months....

U just wouldn't believe....

I am still in you!

9 more days to TP!

I am not well prepare...

had afternoon nap again...

I think that's all for this post?

good nights

:(

Long day!

woke up late for shoot!!! 6am calltime. I 6.20am wake up! brush my teeth and throw my clothing into the bag! helmet on and off from my house to studio with my bicycle! Was a terribly morning! Luckily Raymond didn't said anything.

first location at jurong swimming pool and second at upper seletar reservoir! let talk more on second location! was a artifical raining scene! the raining scene will cause 3,5k for half a day! will upload some set photos when I download it to my computer. From artifical raining scene it became a real raining scene. I think this is my first raining outdoor shoot with raymond! The field was so muddy man! my white nike shoe became a muddy dirty nike shoe! going to wash it tommorrow after my driving lesson.

well, I am very happy with today's plan! No complains even it was raining cats and dogs. :)

I wanted to post something! but after thinking twice. no use also! 'chi chi'you will know what I want to. whatever you decide or want to do is your own life! what I can say or to motivate you in any other ways I have try! no reply mean no reply! Human nature?

tommorrow going to be a short day. I guess.... maybe indoor workout?

I want to post more things. but i need to sleep now!!!

going to rest now!

bonne nuit!

Question Mark?

whole day in SSC...

seek opinion from Dr Comex and Lab test!!!

So I have decide to go for my operation after my coming C-T scan. I need to get this done ASAP!

Lab test.... I know myself... bad.... :( did skin fold too... and guess what!!! MY WEIGHT??? I can't believe... 53kg!!!... SHIT i have really been eating rubbish! I need to control my diet man! skin fold value also increase.. BAD!!!

Looking at the calendar. Plans make here and there. Time really files.

Tp in 11 more days.. I just want to get it done 1 time and for all!
went for driving lesson... bad... :( anyways, I met my secondary school mates.. it's been really a long time not able to see you... yeah! everyone changed after awhile. you did too:) hope to catch up soon and chat again.

distraught...

if you are unsure! you should just wait till you are ready to start new. it's the same principle as "if you are unsure of how to handle or do things, you should consult or understand it first. " not just blindly go with the flow... It will just hurt you more eventually.... Believe in yourselves.

tommorrow shoot we will be having rain machine for the rain scene! awesome! something new to look forward and excited for! but this means i have to ride by myself ...

I have been really lazy nowadays.. I am so so tired.... that's all for now... maybe tommorrow i post a long one!

tommorrow 0645 studio... need to koon now! or not...

Celine Dion - Alone
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5BBVi4dZyi8&feature=related

bonne nuit!

How will humans REACT?

2012? Watched during my gurad rest. NICE! storyline good!!! Show how human beings are. From selfish to selfless! There so much you can do.

How people make decision even it is known to the end of the world.

How scarfices are made to save billions of people.

How would things bring or savage a broken family or relationship back to life.

What would we human beings to when we know the world is coming to the end?

How will we react?

In life the most important people you will find and to treasure is still down to your family! they are the ones who are beside you accompanying you when you are down or even to share with you the happiness and joy! So! Don't ever let them drift away from you! Never ever!

Jesse McCartney - Leavin'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LYMDXK9ZpxQ

today's ride was....... my heart also pump out... Never train... Not commit enough... I need to get my wrist done ASAP!

I suddenly have the urge to go mounatin bike and downhill!! chi chi faster return back!

TDF!!! Petacchi won! nice brunch sprint. POWER MAN!

okay. sleeping time soon! I am lazy to blog others as I find it too long to blog! will continue when I have the time!

Bonne nuit :)

Something to share!

Bring this wherever you go!

weather your post regard on me or not. I will still say this. In life there bound to lot of boundaries. In life there's no right or wrong choice! we always do our best and hope for the best we could! In life there's nothing too late to be ammend.

what excatly have I been doing? like nothing lei... I am way behind time man.

I have been really lazy nowadays. I feel like sleeping now. time for bed!

bonne nuit

Venture? Happy Go Lucky?

salut

watching TDF! 43km more to finishing.. crashes here and there? 19 km more!! 6.1km! lol... CEST LA VIE!

I want to go mountain biking soon.... but no bike... chi chi... shall we? settle for me mountain bike k? please :) come back asap!!!

I want to go racing now!!! I want to ride my bicycle every now and then!

Believe in yourself and things will go along with you! If there's a will there's a way! No matter what you do you will have my support! Anyways, catch up soon! Need to pass your stuff back. School is reopening! you would need them back badly by then. Let me know when you free, will arrange with you. Start your day with A smile :) and the smile will carry with you till the end of the day!

15 more days to TP.. feeling nervous? YES! extreme! I want to get my license so badly man!

I have been too hyperactive... keep on talking non-stop like a radio dj :) friends say I am halfway in IMH... LOL... crazy... bby la hor :)

I need to koon liao... Tomorrow will be a long day. I need my bed so badly. k, 1 ice-cream before to bed:)

bonne nuit

???

today's ride was sooooooo boring..... it's like monday blue... :(


everyone is so lazy nowadays.


Slept throughtout the whole afternoon... what a rare thing i will ever do?! Mom said I slept like a pig :@ LOL.

appointments booking here and there....

Medical need to be clear ASAP!

16 more days to TP! I can't wait man....

20 more days to 1 year solider...

TDF...

good luck to my mates. Junrong and junadi. have a safe trip to france and train hard and enjoy yourself over there! don't forget to buy something back for me! :P

hmm... I want to sleep liao... koon.. zzzz... short and sweet?? :)

bonne nuit

hey hey hey hey.......

went overboard this morning.... haha :) CG you know what i mean.. :)

had a lousy game just now.... got own by you guys man.. anyway playing pool and bowling is not my type of sport. :)

let's talk about U & ME....

during my free time I will read back those comments on your wall.. I laughed to myself... really laughing at those comments.. seeing how actually people in your circle returning bad comments indirectly.. it's really NICE ONE! WELL, HUMAN ARE CEST LA VIE! :) every words in a sentence holds different meaning and feelings. it's how you can re-construct it.

I guess I had really learnt lots through this coming 2 months. More to learnt.

The cruise is about to set off around the world and continue his dreams and his future!


bonne nuit

BIG SIGH!! :(

What a bad day... :(

It's really been awhile... :(

Got knock down by taxi.. :(

Now my bum pain, wrist pain, leg pain, heart pain... :( I hope it doesn't affect my spine.. That the most important thing!

Had a talk with da niao. Had some advice from him regards on my operation and my cycling career! I should heed his advice!

My next big aim or next big race! Tour de lankawagi. If everything goes smoothly with my operation in too! This race will be my biggest aim for early 2011. I wish to bring you there too.

Plans will be made with Frankie and Dr Comex and Daniel asap! And training will start asap!

Went to studio first before heading to Daniel's shop. Auntie Brenda was there too. They was about to shoot E-News! The host Marion Caunter and Dominic Lau, Ask me weather to join them in their hosting with my OCBC jersey! Haha:) they are mad! AND! I haven't gave Raymond an answer... Hmmm.. Should I go? I want to take a break too! Sigh.. I really misses Studio much!

Anyway, this morning I was reading the newspaper about Marion Caunter. She is those hot tech-chicks. She had her blackberry and ipad in her bag and to accompany her during her make-up and when she's free. She find those gadgets are good for killing time.
more information: http://divaasia.com/article/9767. go check it out...

This reminds me of the blackberry apps and themes that I can recommend to you and make you love them then you will be crazy over your blackberry! :)

Met some of my oeti friends during today's SAF parade. Had some talk session with them and found out their friends sell blackberry too! Haha! Gosh, I want also. It means i must have the blackberry plan too or not it's useless.. But I am still considering. :)

Driving lesson was great! Awesome! Went in the circuit. To familiar the place. Parell parking. Reverse see the 1 box then after that full turn in then after you see the behind yellow box turn straight after that see your wheel touch the white line full turn in. After that slowly adjust if it's not straight. Must not forget this! Very important! 20 more days!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!

Sigh!!! My back is hurting... Should have taken down his contact no and car plate. Sigh... Why I always forget!!! So dumb of me! useless shit...

I had full of injuries on my body!!! Really need some time to recover! :(

I mailed you! But don't know weather will you reply? I felt so upset when you don't reply me :(

somehow I can sense something bad is facing towards me... I think I just know the answer...
I don't know weather am I thinking too much??

well.... cest la vie...

Dieu benir moi

Boonne nuit
Affectueux vous toujours
Manqué vous

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sigh...

welfare for soliders? I can't disclose/say anything about them.. i will just find faults with myself. clever enough don't need to act even more clever. "Brillant!" you guys know what i meant..

so what should I do with my left wrist??? CHOP IT OFF? :P

sigh.. because of it.. I got to push all my appointments up... so what will your answer be after my C-T SCAN? after operation come and find me again? rolfffffffff........ you better not.. or I WILL!

Don't judge a book by it's cover.
hmmm... same as...
Don't judge a look by it's cover. ?? Nice??

everyone falls... everyone grow stronger after the falls...

CEST LA VIE!

will i be so dumb to falls and repeat the same mistakes? nah!!! one fall is enough to bring me down. I really don't wish to turn back the same route.. what I want is to do even better and provide the best out from myself and to you!

everyone misses us!

I have a dream! An awesome dream. far far away from singapore.. :) sound great! I hope this dream will be complete by u and me. JUST U & ME!

return back my mail alright? I have a lot of things to share with you...

well, the decesion is to you. like i say. everything you do i will still respect you!

busy month...

20 more days to my traffic police test! Please pray for me to pass! and next motorbike! sound cool!

a partir de moi coeur! je amour vous

bonne nuit
amour amour

Manque vous

Went for my wrist review at NUH.. Sigh.. It's quite badly damage through the X-Ray.. If I go for the operation they will take out the bone and put the screw in.. If I don't and when I grow older I will have the take out the whole damaged bone and left with 4 other bones. So it's that bad. And I know my right wrist has the same problem too... But I choose not to know and just leave it... if to go opertation i will miss my cycling for 4 weeks to 3 months... if don't go when i grow older something will just happen...

dont go...

Bangkok trip... :( sigh.... I don't even know weather am i going yet... :(

koon.... moi vraiment manque vous lots!

bonne nuit

amour vous

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It's really time... :(

Everyone has been telling me the same things.... :( after all is still in me... :( I am just as stubborn as what u think.

life is always cest la vie.... :(

culeless... :(

cest la vie.....

I am a emo kid...

I have a issue again now... :( I don't know weather should I just take over it... :(

is really very unfair... things are just keep happening... it just makes me more stress up and a unhappy boy...

I really need a break off from singapore...

What I could hope for is all I can do....

when i am sad everyone around me will be sad...

my whole life is been affected badly...

I really miss my laughter...
I really misses my past before entering army....
I really misses the good times I had....
I really misses how my life was....
I misses so many things that I could have treasure it....

when it's gone you will worry and everything you do it will bring you down it is because those are the things that you really need and love to have them..

is so diffcult being a human.... what else can i say?

I am so dissapointed with myself.. I am very!

is all fate...

Monday's blue....

heureux est tous je desoin a parti de vous

Bon nuit

sad :(

What a day... :(

What a race man.. :(

It's all anger... Sad.. Sad.. :(

Disappointed... :(

I really don't know what to say, post or blog.. Everything is all in me.. Maybe you know what I want to say and all. I think you know..

Had team dinner with u and Sarah. Was a great dinner.

I have lots to blog. But some of it I can't blog due to some personal issues.. U know too!

I guess I should go and rest now..

Bon nuit
Manqué vous
Ignat

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trouble:(

A very tiring day:(

Tommorrow is an important day to me! It must be executed!
Morning ride.. Went to race course to ride and to know the route well. A pretty flat race! Going to be a hard race! How hard will it be? How much will I suffer? How much it means to me?
Afternoon went to collect race kit and attend the briefing at SIS. Located at hougang/ ang mo kio ave 3... After that straight to studio for clean&clear shoot! Today shoot was more on shooting the behind the scene. It was a good learning experience! Had a look at how actually the digital dslr looks! Damn expensive! Guess what? It costs you 30over k... If I would to get it my pocket will be burn till nothing left. Learn from ah Wong alot of lighting techniques today!

some shots on the clean & clear girls.



tomorrow national champ... :( not ready.. ?!?!?!

feels very trouble... only I will understand and upset on it.. if u does too u will know how it feels.
alright, i shall not say anything much already.

nights
ces la vie
amour

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bonjour

Morning filming at 313, Forever 21.
It's clean & clear shoot!
7 country. 14 girls, Malaysia, Taiwan, Singapore, Indonesia, hong kong, vaitemen, philipnes!
The winner stand to win those outfit that worth $300! NICE!

This patch of girls compare to the previous patch was so much better :) haha! But that's because they pre select those girls from their country too! So much better!

I love filming man! Miss filming so much. Mel, go become producer again.. :P Then we can ask our whole cliqutold friends to involve in the shoot and enjoy and have fun filming!

Is really a busy day for me! Need to settle alot of my bicycle stuff! This mean I have a poor time managment!!! :( need to buck up!

Raymond organsing a holiday trip for the clique to bangkok! :) 3days 2night! I Want to go man! So how? U better decide weather to go and save up money! Haha:)

Very tired :( staying in studio tonight! So long didn't get to stay over. So exciting man!

Okay going to sleep now!! Koon!

Bon nuit!
Amour vous

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salut!

Went siloso beach today. Had so much fun there... I did something stupid but entertaining:) climb up to the hut and then wait for ppl to find me:) I am like a monkey and a mouse! haha:) Gave Jason a shock too! Haha. It's so fun! Had Sun tan too!

Lunch at Marche had Roti siwss with chicken sausage. Roti siwss made using pototao! Good food! Healthy food! Nice food! One day we go there eat k! there got lots of variety. TOO much variety!!

It been awhile since I been to vivo city...

Driving lesson wasn't good today... When will I improve? I really need to pass this coming test! till now i am so in-consistence ... :(

Went to daniel's shop to take the zip wheel! I am so excited! New toy :) New toy will never fail to motitvae you!

303!!! Nice wheel! going to test drive man!

look at those wheels i have! AWESOME!! but it dosen't belong to me.. :(

mel, saw your facebook comment.

just want to let you know. I am very grateful to have you. you really put in alot of effort in me! I know and I can feel. this 1 month plus it been hard for me and I had really learn and reflected through alot of things. yes, no relationship is perfect, ever. but there are always some ways we have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater. Time will show and allows us to return back together if we are meant to be!

I miss you when something good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with.

I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understand me so well.

I miss you when I laugh and cry beacuse I that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disapper.

I miss you most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other, for those were some of the best times in my life.

I really misses you alot.

tommorrow will be a good day! clean & clear shoot. time really files.. mel, do u still remember last time we are in studio filming clean & clear? F1 rocks is coming up too! times really files... I hope we will be able to be back together and watch F1 rocks together again and have fun.

bon nuit!

manque & affectoux vous

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Boredom

hmmm...

I have been busy doing some stuff?

Driving lesson wasn't fun or nice at all... I am starting to hate driving... :( how can I even pass the test? Drivng isn't diffcult at all.. Is just taking the test the problem....

National Champ is just around the corner! she just text saying she won't be coming... :(

I am so tired man... maybe tommorrow i wake up eariler to use comp!

going to koon now...

bon nuit
affectoux vous

HMMMM...

anything to post??

lots of things going through my mind! well... I am strong now.. like that crash... you will never learn if you don't fall!

what's worthwhile is worth to wait. I had put in effort and try my best! if it comes back I will do treasure it as much as I can for my life.

nothing usual... back to my ususal life..

hmm... maybe something to shareee!!! going to get 101 and 303 zippp wheel :)

national champ coming.... nervous?? don't know how will i perform that day??

time to go to bed... koon.....

bon nuit
amour vous

A long post!

17th may 2010

Finally! I am out of Singapore! Had a delay from Singapore to Jakarta then to we missed our flight to surabaya.. :( but luckily we managed to get onto another flight. So still alright! nothing is impossible :) After we arrived at the airport is already 9pm plus... And we had another 3hours drive to our hotel. huh?!?! there goes my bum!! It's past midnight alreadly. A very rushing day! Yet everyone enjoyed! :)

Went for a spin ride in the morning. Climb mountain and descending. We are going through stgae 2 race route! Okay, at least I get to know how it is like and know what to look out for!

Went to some restuarnt like KFC had their deep fried chicken! Woohoo! Nice! Awesome! Love it! Can't resist! I know I shouldn't have but it's too tempting man! Don't care! Eat first think later! :D

Hotel was quite okay just that the toliet wasn't that nice... :( everyone was entitled one room each but ended up I room with ah gu! :) I have no intention to sleep alone too :D

Bon nuit
Manqué te

18th may 2010

Short race!! 110km.. Big mountains and big descend. I crash! Injury my knee.. Got my knee cap hit onto a big stone! Shoulder now aching. :( my first ever crash in an oversea race. :( I know there will be more to come...

I was so upset! I say I am not going to race tommorrow and I am giving up this career in front my whole team.. Everyone went silent.. It affected everyone so badly. After my bathe I was called to juniadi room with ah gu and had a conversation. I cried badly during the conversation.. :( I am sorry and I apologise to the whole team for damming your mood and the team sipirt!

Everything went so screw up for the past 2 months... :((

Sometimes I really can't take it anymore! I really just feel like giving up :(

Sad!!! Cest la vie :(

Bon nuit
Manqué vous

19th may 2010

Stage 2... 154km.. Sound long but not as long as 200km! It's rather quite normal or usual to me already. :) I am used to it. Good for me!

Everything went well for today's race. Except I had a puncture at 41km mark. :( I was wondering how in the way will I be able to make back to the peleton. But luckily I managed to catch back! I really count myself so luckily man! Thanks to alan too! Anyway, It's also my first time riding a tublar wheel and also my first time to puntured tublar.. Nice feeling and experience! Is nice to see the team is actually up in the front... Wait till this team is strong I believe we will also have a chance to be up there like giant asia and others doing proper lead out train! Overall for today was not bad! Every race we always made improvement! Good! if the race was a 10 over stage we might have chance to be up there too! :)

Had a long talk with Lemuel the whole afternoon!! thanks lemuel lee!!!

So tired man! I think I went too overboard man.. While we was having dinner Vincent YOU!!!!! And Your same old usual stuff! "Wow! This food and drink looks nice ar! Let me try!" after you try it will be gone! Haha. So when the drink approach to our dinning table we fought over my coke with float drink. And GUESS what! We caused a big trouble for them! We spill the drink and other 2 drink spill too and went straight to the ground.. :( I felt so gulity after that.. :(
I am sorry! :(

Bon nuit
Affectuox vous

20th may 2010

Awww!!! Shit... My last few days pre blog is all gone!!! :( shit... Confirm when i fell asleep halfway with my music on then accidentally detele it.. :( I am so freaking sad... Lemuel said this might be a MSG to tell me on not to blog those things i wanted to blog. Maybe heaven is hinting me too! Okay, I don't blog but I will say this: "there's alot of things going through my mind."

Today's race was hell fast! Almost got drop 2 times. Tried to go for an attack but very SOON I got caught back! Is like instant! Like a rubber band! That attack cost me to sit back inside the pelton and recover for quite awhile . But it was a nice experience man though! :)

Poor Jun Rong! Always got bully and played by us:) haha:D don't be sad. Cheer up man! Not everytime we get to bully you too! :) But maybe it will be always. Haha:)

Packed our bicycle and stuff.. This trip dosen't feel like 4 or 5day.. Feels like 3 day trip.. I don't want to return back to Singapore. :( I really need a vacation! :(

21th may 2010

1 whole day of travelling... What a day... Sat in the car for 3 hours.. Had A&W straight after we arrive at the airport! Waffle ice-cream! Nice food that cannot be missed. Awww!! Our flight got delay man! It means we might going to miss our flight to singapore. NOT Again! I hate it! Never mind.. 2hours of free time so we went to starbuck and get some drink and also to continue watching bruno! What a moive man! That's very sick man... Time to board our plane to Jakarta... Slept throughout the whole flight. Arrived! And O NO! We are really going to miss our flight again! Dots... Rush for the shuttle bus to transit to another terminal.. Reach the counter and to what we see on the LCD screen from the counter. It dislpay "CLOSED". Went straight to talk to the guys over there and tell them is not our problem.. And luckily everything went well again.. The guy help and contacted the manager and because of us the flight was delay for awhile.. Haha:) like a "SUPERSTAR" ! Hate the transit time.. Always waste so much Time... Don't like man! I can't sleep at all in the plane from jakarta to Singapore. There's really alot of things going up in my mind... So much things.. :(

unpack my bike.. returning emails.... sorting up my time-table... pre-plan everything... and of course updating this blog too...

Awww!!! I don't want to go back camp tommorrow... I want to take off but thinking back. It wouldn't be nice at all and I don't have much off much left too! It means I need to wait up early in the morning again.. back to the usual life... :(

Bon nuit
Affectoux vous & manqué vous

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Bonjour

bonjour

woke up so early just want to faster finish pack my stuff and make sure nothing left out.. but till now 1030hrs... I haven even finish packing... If you are around! everything would be pack and ready to go and will head off to have an early lunch in airport! I really miss you so much! :(

My first overseas trip without you being there with me. :(

airport does held alot of memories we had together.

Sad Sad Sad Sad Sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad :( :( :(((((((

I feel so trouble....

I am so lazy......

I am so emo....

I am so upset.....

Not excited at all...

Not motivated at all....

I don't know what should I do....

I am stuck....

I need you...

I need your accompany....

I need your love....

I need your support....

I need everything of you....

You will never fail to make my day happy every single day being with me.

I really want to hold your hands back!

I want to share all my happiness and sadness in my life with you so much...

No matter how long the wait takes. I will still wait and hopes for mircale. You are always be in my mind every moments.

You are the right girl I want in my entire life! It will be!

It's raining so heavily....

I hope when I am over there I can still blog and updated you what I am doing...

I am still loving you always
affectueux vous toujours

apologise

Sorry Mel,

My bad. Yup! you are absolute right! You are the one who don't wish to see me ended up with nothing.

I apologise to you for that posts.

Sorry, I never use brain to think before I do things.

we all do/say things when we are upset or emotional that we don't think through enough..
thanks sarah.

Driving lesson was no different compare to a first timer learning driving... I am really screw up! :(

still left some stuff to pack...

Sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

I am a total failure boy! I have let myself down.. :( My life is really very screw up. :(

Down my heart I still have deep feeling for you! It will never change and you will be sitted down deeply my heart!

I am a useless bum.....

Bon nuit
amour vous

bonjour!

Bonjour

Had a great ride this morning as mention on my facebook too! Great morning=Great ride! Great afternoon= Great lunch and shoot! Great evening=Great dinner and Great chat with my friends! It's a GREAT day! Hope you guys had a great day like me too!

Anyways, Raymond is going to pass me his coffee machine! Woohoo! This means that I am able to have nice awesome coffee from the machine everyday!! :) power to the people! :)

Today's Shoot with hoods production was awesome too! Haiqel AGAIN doing those stupid stuff! As usual! Anyway, Next Sunday shoot I won't be able to join you guys... :( sorry:( will see you guys the following week! Promise! :) next month MTV shoot at Malaysia... I want to go too! :D Raymond bring me along too!!!

Playing aion.. Intro by my fellow friends Jason and Mark! But I am so tired!! Going to bed soon anyway... Tommrow driving lesson still on... Well, now work hard once and for all I will pass my TP! Then no stress!

Bon nuit
Manqué vous
Amour vous

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A Month :(

It's a month not being able to have you , be with you, listen to you, play with you, take care of you,kiss you, hold your hands, hug you, seeing you having your meals, go out with you :((((

Very upset. I didn't know time really passes so fast during this 1month... Is not long yet not short. I really hate myself alot! If I can bring time back I really desperatly want!

I really want this whole relationship back. I really want it back! :( no matter how long it takes and suffering to go through I am willing to wait for you!

I have so much things to say to you... :(

Went fort caning for shoot. Shooting for history channel. It been awhile not working with you too. go there feed mosquito too... poor beautiful leg i have :( Went back studio after that.. Unpack and also to paint studio.. Had a long chat with mark and also dinner at Thai resturant.. And! I REALLY LOVE DRINKiNG COFFEE! Especially from the coffee machine! Love it! I will save up money and buy!

Omg! I am spending quite a bit of money on my itouch accessories.. Anway, dear readers if u need any iPhone to iPod touch or any apple stuff let me know! I got lobang!! :)

downloading and installing Aion... jason and mark is so in it now... as usual like blackshot!!

tomorrow fliming in studio with HOODS :) will be a fun and enjoyable day to look ahead! hope so! but before that i will go riding as usual! I have set my goal! that's to be on podium! I will make sure... please bless me! train hard and all my hardwork will pay off!

time to go to bed... I misses vous alot.. :( it will never been a ending to me. :(

No relationship is perfect, ever. There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater. the we have for each other is bigger than these small differences. And that's the key. It's like a big pie chart, and the love in a realtionship has to be the biggest piece.

Love can make up a lot...

bon nuit
manque vous
amour vous
volonte etre la pour vous

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shouldn't me be happy?

It's an off day for me. A long weekend for me!

Went riding alone with the sun.. Such a lonely ride... Start off with a hard pace... My heart is really burning man! Ah gu laugh at me please! Wants to go back to that night... The night I drank so much in my life... Had so much rubbish from myself.. Felt so unfit man... How to win races? You are such a weakling!! Ppl are laughing at you. Stupid boy! :(

I can't control my feeling... :( I am a human being that has feelings... :( the world is round whatever we do eventually it still will come back to us one day! There's really so much things i want to tell you, but I know how much i say. Things dosen't come back so easily like what I want :( it would be a long long post!

Went sport council... Forgot to bring my watch out...how can I forgot? felt's really awkward! :( It's been awhile not doing sport massage.. Pain. Pain :( but this time isn't as painful as last few sessions. Maybe the massagers never eat enough lunch to make me cry.. Haha :P

Just realise Singapore public transport especially the mrt system is so well built and plan out! Travellig time actually cut down so much with the circle line around! Now go ssc also won't take out much time.. :) great!

Things aren't so simple when you think simple,
it's actually simple when you think it difficult.

No matter how much I have hurt and all. Is all cause by myself. the more I think the more things will lead it.. leaving it alone would really be the best solution. but i can't.. I have tried but I can't... simply can't... tomorrow will be the 1 month... :( with you everything I do I will make sure it is an 110% from me... without you everything in me is like a useless piece of me...

I really really want to return back to my usual self.. A happy mischievous boy everyday joke around.. I really want it back so badly! :( I really suffer alot :(

very soon I know you will have a new love in your life or maybe you are already on the route to a new love... everything change... time really changes each and every moments. it really passes so fast.. whatever you do i will always hope that you are happy! when you feel sorrow call me and share with me..

manque moi? volonte moi?

help!! :(

bonjour

Woke up 4.15am... Had live firing just now.. I Am so tired now.. :( ultra duper :(

Was so damn nervous during the actually shoot! :( my hands actually tremble.. :( luckily my day shoot I pass.. But miss five shots :( night shoot had only 4shots.. :( was so dissapointed after I miss the 2 shots from marksmanship... :( $200 fly away right in front of me! :(

What exactly am I thinking and looking forward or working towards? Have no idea.. I only know! Losing you is the biggest mistake I had made.. :(

Without fail every moments there will be bit and pieces of you.

National champ! I am very motivated to win! Come and support me can? seeing you will motivate me to even suffer more and attack towards my goal! Ocbc bank Singapore cycling team will win! I am sure :)

had a 20mins walk back home... no bus.. no train.. only got legs.. :(

had dinner too... dinner at 2.10am? :( breakfast?

it's 2.45am... and i still can't sleep...

Bon nuit
Manqué vous

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