shouldn't me be happy?

It's an off day for me. A long weekend for me!

Went riding alone with the sun.. Such a lonely ride... Start off with a hard pace... My heart is really burning man! Ah gu laugh at me please! Wants to go back to that night... The night I drank so much in my life... Had so much rubbish from myself.. Felt so unfit man... How to win races? You are such a weakling!! Ppl are laughing at you. Stupid boy! :(

I can't control my feeling... :( I am a human being that has feelings... :( the world is round whatever we do eventually it still will come back to us one day! There's really so much things i want to tell you, but I know how much i say. Things dosen't come back so easily like what I want :( it would be a long long post!

Went sport council... Forgot to bring my watch out...how can I forgot? felt's really awkward! :( It's been awhile not doing sport massage.. Pain. Pain :( but this time isn't as painful as last few sessions. Maybe the massagers never eat enough lunch to make me cry.. Haha :P

Just realise Singapore public transport especially the mrt system is so well built and plan out! Travellig time actually cut down so much with the circle line around! Now go ssc also won't take out much time.. :) great!

Things aren't so simple when you think simple,
it's actually simple when you think it difficult.

No matter how much I have hurt and all. Is all cause by myself. the more I think the more things will lead it.. leaving it alone would really be the best solution. but i can't.. I have tried but I can't... simply can't... tomorrow will be the 1 month... :( with you everything I do I will make sure it is an 110% from me... without you everything in me is like a useless piece of me...

I really really want to return back to my usual self.. A happy mischievous boy everyday joke around.. I really want it back so badly! :( I really suffer alot :(

very soon I know you will have a new love in your life or maybe you are already on the route to a new love... everything change... time really changes each and every moments. it really passes so fast.. whatever you do i will always hope that you are happy! when you feel sorrow call me and share with me..

manque moi? volonte moi?