sigh...

welfare for soliders? I can't disclose/say anything about them.. i will just find faults with myself. clever enough don't need to act even more clever. "Brillant!" you guys know what i meant..

so what should I do with my left wrist??? CHOP IT OFF? :P

sigh.. because of it.. I got to push all my appointments up... so what will your answer be after my C-T SCAN? after operation come and find me again? rolfffffffff........ you better not.. or I WILL!

Don't judge a book by it's cover.
hmmm... same as...
Don't judge a look by it's cover. ?? Nice??

everyone falls... everyone grow stronger after the falls...

CEST LA VIE!

will i be so dumb to falls and repeat the same mistakes? nah!!! one fall is enough to bring me down. I really don't wish to turn back the same route.. what I want is to do even better and provide the best out from myself and to you!

everyone misses us!

I have a dream! An awesome dream. far far away from singapore.. :) sound great! I hope this dream will be complete by u and me. JUST U & ME!

return back my mail alright? I have a lot of things to share with you...

well, the decesion is to you. like i say. everything you do i will still respect you!

busy month...

20 more days to my traffic police test! Please pray for me to pass! and next motorbike! sound cool!

a partir de moi coeur! je amour vous

bonne nuit
amour amour

Manque vous

Went for my wrist review at NUH.. Sigh.. It's quite badly damage through the X-Ray.. If I go for the operation they will take out the bone and put the screw in.. If I don't and when I grow older I will have the take out the whole damaged bone and left with 4 other bones. So it's that bad. And I know my right wrist has the same problem too... But I choose not to know and just leave it... if to go opertation i will miss my cycling for 4 weeks to 3 months... if don't go when i grow older something will just happen...

dont go...

Bangkok trip... :( sigh.... I don't even know weather am i going yet... :(

koon.... moi vraiment manque vous lots!

bonne nuit

amour vous

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It's really time... :(

Everyone has been telling me the same things.... :( after all is still in me... :( I am just as stubborn as what u think.

life is always cest la vie.... :(

culeless... :(

cest la vie.....

I am a emo kid...

I have a issue again now... :( I don't know weather should I just take over it... :(

is really very unfair... things are just keep happening... it just makes me more stress up and a unhappy boy...

I really need a break off from singapore...

What I could hope for is all I can do....

when i am sad everyone around me will be sad...

my whole life is been affected badly...

I really miss my laughter...
I really misses my past before entering army....
I really misses the good times I had....
I really misses how my life was....
I misses so many things that I could have treasure it....

when it's gone you will worry and everything you do it will bring you down it is because those are the things that you really need and love to have them..

is so diffcult being a human.... what else can i say?

I am so dissapointed with myself.. I am very!

is all fate...

Monday's blue....

heureux est tous je desoin a parti de vous

Bon nuit

sad :(

What a day... :(

What a race man.. :(

It's all anger... Sad.. Sad.. :(

Disappointed... :(

I really don't know what to say, post or blog.. Everything is all in me.. Maybe you know what I want to say and all. I think you know..

Had team dinner with u and Sarah. Was a great dinner.

I have lots to blog. But some of it I can't blog due to some personal issues.. U know too!

I guess I should go and rest now..

Bon nuit
Manqué vous
Ignat

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trouble:(

A very tiring day:(

Tommorrow is an important day to me! It must be executed!
Morning ride.. Went to race course to ride and to know the route well. A pretty flat race! Going to be a hard race! How hard will it be? How much will I suffer? How much it means to me?
Afternoon went to collect race kit and attend the briefing at SIS. Located at hougang/ ang mo kio ave 3... After that straight to studio for clean&clear shoot! Today shoot was more on shooting the behind the scene. It was a good learning experience! Had a look at how actually the digital dslr looks! Damn expensive! Guess what? It costs you 30over k... If I would to get it my pocket will be burn till nothing left. Learn from ah Wong alot of lighting techniques today!

some shots on the clean & clear girls.



tomorrow national champ... :( not ready.. ?!?!?!

feels very trouble... only I will understand and upset on it.. if u does too u will know how it feels.
alright, i shall not say anything much already.

nights
ces la vie
amour

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bonjour

Morning filming at 313, Forever 21.
It's clean & clear shoot!
7 country. 14 girls, Malaysia, Taiwan, Singapore, Indonesia, hong kong, vaitemen, philipnes!
The winner stand to win those outfit that worth $300! NICE!

This patch of girls compare to the previous patch was so much better :) haha! But that's because they pre select those girls from their country too! So much better!

I love filming man! Miss filming so much. Mel, go become producer again.. :P Then we can ask our whole cliqutold friends to involve in the shoot and enjoy and have fun filming!

Is really a busy day for me! Need to settle alot of my bicycle stuff! This mean I have a poor time managment!!! :( need to buck up!

Raymond organsing a holiday trip for the clique to bangkok! :) 3days 2night! I Want to go man! So how? U better decide weather to go and save up money! Haha:)

Very tired :( staying in studio tonight! So long didn't get to stay over. So exciting man!

Okay going to sleep now!! Koon!

Bon nuit!
Amour vous

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salut!

Went siloso beach today. Had so much fun there... I did something stupid but entertaining:) climb up to the hut and then wait for ppl to find me:) I am like a monkey and a mouse! haha:) Gave Jason a shock too! Haha. It's so fun! Had Sun tan too!

Lunch at Marche had Roti siwss with chicken sausage. Roti siwss made using pototao! Good food! Healthy food! Nice food! One day we go there eat k! there got lots of variety. TOO much variety!!

It been awhile since I been to vivo city...

Driving lesson wasn't good today... When will I improve? I really need to pass this coming test! till now i am so in-consistence ... :(

Went to daniel's shop to take the zip wheel! I am so excited! New toy :) New toy will never fail to motitvae you!

303!!! Nice wheel! going to test drive man!

look at those wheels i have! AWESOME!! but it dosen't belong to me.. :(

mel, saw your facebook comment.

just want to let you know. I am very grateful to have you. you really put in alot of effort in me! I know and I can feel. this 1 month plus it been hard for me and I had really learn and reflected through alot of things. yes, no relationship is perfect, ever. but there are always some ways we have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater. Time will show and allows us to return back together if we are meant to be!

I miss you when something good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with.

I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understand me so well.

I miss you when I laugh and cry beacuse I that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disapper.

I miss you most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other, for those were some of the best times in my life.

I really misses you alot.

tommorrow will be a good day! clean & clear shoot. time really files.. mel, do u still remember last time we are in studio filming clean & clear? F1 rocks is coming up too! times really files... I hope we will be able to be back together and watch F1 rocks together again and have fun.

bon nuit!

manque & affectoux vous

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Boredom

hmmm...

I have been busy doing some stuff?

Driving lesson wasn't fun or nice at all... I am starting to hate driving... :( how can I even pass the test? Drivng isn't diffcult at all.. Is just taking the test the problem....

National Champ is just around the corner! she just text saying she won't be coming... :(

I am so tired man... maybe tommorrow i wake up eariler to use comp!

going to koon now...

bon nuit
affectoux vous

HMMMM...

anything to post??

lots of things going through my mind! well... I am strong now.. like that crash... you will never learn if you don't fall!

what's worthwhile is worth to wait. I had put in effort and try my best! if it comes back I will do treasure it as much as I can for my life.

nothing usual... back to my ususal life..

hmm... maybe something to shareee!!! going to get 101 and 303 zippp wheel :)

national champ coming.... nervous?? don't know how will i perform that day??

time to go to bed... koon.....

bon nuit
amour vous

A long post!

17th may 2010

Finally! I am out of Singapore! Had a delay from Singapore to Jakarta then to we missed our flight to surabaya.. :( but luckily we managed to get onto another flight. So still alright! nothing is impossible :) After we arrived at the airport is already 9pm plus... And we had another 3hours drive to our hotel. huh?!?! there goes my bum!! It's past midnight alreadly. A very rushing day! Yet everyone enjoyed! :)

Went for a spin ride in the morning. Climb mountain and descending. We are going through stgae 2 race route! Okay, at least I get to know how it is like and know what to look out for!

Went to some restuarnt like KFC had their deep fried chicken! Woohoo! Nice! Awesome! Love it! Can't resist! I know I shouldn't have but it's too tempting man! Don't care! Eat first think later! :D

Hotel was quite okay just that the toliet wasn't that nice... :( everyone was entitled one room each but ended up I room with ah gu! :) I have no intention to sleep alone too :D

Bon nuit
Manqué te

18th may 2010

Short race!! 110km.. Big mountains and big descend. I crash! Injury my knee.. Got my knee cap hit onto a big stone! Shoulder now aching. :( my first ever crash in an oversea race. :( I know there will be more to come...

I was so upset! I say I am not going to race tommorrow and I am giving up this career in front my whole team.. Everyone went silent.. It affected everyone so badly. After my bathe I was called to juniadi room with ah gu and had a conversation. I cried badly during the conversation.. :( I am sorry and I apologise to the whole team for damming your mood and the team sipirt!

Everything went so screw up for the past 2 months... :((

Sometimes I really can't take it anymore! I really just feel like giving up :(

Sad!!! Cest la vie :(

Bon nuit
Manqué vous

19th may 2010

Stage 2... 154km.. Sound long but not as long as 200km! It's rather quite normal or usual to me already. :) I am used to it. Good for me!

Everything went well for today's race. Except I had a puncture at 41km mark. :( I was wondering how in the way will I be able to make back to the peleton. But luckily I managed to catch back! I really count myself so luckily man! Thanks to alan too! Anyway, It's also my first time riding a tublar wheel and also my first time to puntured tublar.. Nice feeling and experience! Is nice to see the team is actually up in the front... Wait till this team is strong I believe we will also have a chance to be up there like giant asia and others doing proper lead out train! Overall for today was not bad! Every race we always made improvement! Good! if the race was a 10 over stage we might have chance to be up there too! :)

Had a long talk with Lemuel the whole afternoon!! thanks lemuel lee!!!

So tired man! I think I went too overboard man.. While we was having dinner Vincent YOU!!!!! And Your same old usual stuff! "Wow! This food and drink looks nice ar! Let me try!" after you try it will be gone! Haha. So when the drink approach to our dinning table we fought over my coke with float drink. And GUESS what! We caused a big trouble for them! We spill the drink and other 2 drink spill too and went straight to the ground.. :( I felt so gulity after that.. :(
I am sorry! :(

Bon nuit
Affectuox vous

20th may 2010

Awww!!! Shit... My last few days pre blog is all gone!!! :( shit... Confirm when i fell asleep halfway with my music on then accidentally detele it.. :( I am so freaking sad... Lemuel said this might be a MSG to tell me on not to blog those things i wanted to blog. Maybe heaven is hinting me too! Okay, I don't blog but I will say this: "there's alot of things going through my mind."

Today's race was hell fast! Almost got drop 2 times. Tried to go for an attack but very SOON I got caught back! Is like instant! Like a rubber band! That attack cost me to sit back inside the pelton and recover for quite awhile . But it was a nice experience man though! :)

Poor Jun Rong! Always got bully and played by us:) haha:D don't be sad. Cheer up man! Not everytime we get to bully you too! :) But maybe it will be always. Haha:)

Packed our bicycle and stuff.. This trip dosen't feel like 4 or 5day.. Feels like 3 day trip.. I don't want to return back to Singapore. :( I really need a vacation! :(

21th may 2010

1 whole day of travelling... What a day... Sat in the car for 3 hours.. Had A&W straight after we arrive at the airport! Waffle ice-cream! Nice food that cannot be missed. Awww!! Our flight got delay man! It means we might going to miss our flight to singapore. NOT Again! I hate it! Never mind.. 2hours of free time so we went to starbuck and get some drink and also to continue watching bruno! What a moive man! That's very sick man... Time to board our plane to Jakarta... Slept throughout the whole flight. Arrived! And O NO! We are really going to miss our flight again! Dots... Rush for the shuttle bus to transit to another terminal.. Reach the counter and to what we see on the LCD screen from the counter. It dislpay "CLOSED". Went straight to talk to the guys over there and tell them is not our problem.. And luckily everything went well again.. The guy help and contacted the manager and because of us the flight was delay for awhile.. Haha:) like a "SUPERSTAR" ! Hate the transit time.. Always waste so much Time... Don't like man! I can't sleep at all in the plane from jakarta to Singapore. There's really alot of things going up in my mind... So much things.. :(

unpack my bike.. returning emails.... sorting up my time-table... pre-plan everything... and of course updating this blog too...

Awww!!! I don't want to go back camp tommorrow... I want to take off but thinking back. It wouldn't be nice at all and I don't have much off much left too! It means I need to wait up early in the morning again.. back to the usual life... :(

Bon nuit
Affectoux vous & manqué vous

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Bonjour

bonjour

woke up so early just want to faster finish pack my stuff and make sure nothing left out.. but till now 1030hrs... I haven even finish packing... If you are around! everything would be pack and ready to go and will head off to have an early lunch in airport! I really miss you so much! :(

My first overseas trip without you being there with me. :(

airport does held alot of memories we had together.

Sad Sad Sad Sad Sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad :( :( :(((((((

I feel so trouble....

I am so lazy......

I am so emo....

I am so upset.....

Not excited at all...

Not motivated at all....

I don't know what should I do....

I am stuck....

I need you...

I need your accompany....

I need your love....

I need your support....

I need everything of you....

You will never fail to make my day happy every single day being with me.

I really want to hold your hands back!

I want to share all my happiness and sadness in my life with you so much...

No matter how long the wait takes. I will still wait and hopes for mircale. You are always be in my mind every moments.

You are the right girl I want in my entire life! It will be!

It's raining so heavily....

I hope when I am over there I can still blog and updated you what I am doing...

I am still loving you always
affectueux vous toujours

apologise

Sorry Mel,

My bad. Yup! you are absolute right! You are the one who don't wish to see me ended up with nothing.

I apologise to you for that posts.

Sorry, I never use brain to think before I do things.

we all do/say things when we are upset or emotional that we don't think through enough..
thanks sarah.

Driving lesson was no different compare to a first timer learning driving... I am really screw up! :(

still left some stuff to pack...

Sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

I am a total failure boy! I have let myself down.. :( My life is really very screw up. :(

Down my heart I still have deep feeling for you! It will never change and you will be sitted down deeply my heart!

I am a useless bum.....

Bon nuit
amour vous

bonjour!

Bonjour

Had a great ride this morning as mention on my facebook too! Great morning=Great ride! Great afternoon= Great lunch and shoot! Great evening=Great dinner and Great chat with my friends! It's a GREAT day! Hope you guys had a great day like me too!

Anyways, Raymond is going to pass me his coffee machine! Woohoo! This means that I am able to have nice awesome coffee from the machine everyday!! :) power to the people! :)

Today's Shoot with hoods production was awesome too! Haiqel AGAIN doing those stupid stuff! As usual! Anyway, Next Sunday shoot I won't be able to join you guys... :( sorry:( will see you guys the following week! Promise! :) next month MTV shoot at Malaysia... I want to go too! :D Raymond bring me along too!!!

Playing aion.. Intro by my fellow friends Jason and Mark! But I am so tired!! Going to bed soon anyway... Tommrow driving lesson still on... Well, now work hard once and for all I will pass my TP! Then no stress!

Bon nuit
Manqué vous
Amour vous

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A Month :(

It's a month not being able to have you , be with you, listen to you, play with you, take care of you,kiss you, hold your hands, hug you, seeing you having your meals, go out with you :((((

Very upset. I didn't know time really passes so fast during this 1month... Is not long yet not short. I really hate myself alot! If I can bring time back I really desperatly want!

I really want this whole relationship back. I really want it back! :( no matter how long it takes and suffering to go through I am willing to wait for you!

I have so much things to say to you... :(

Went fort caning for shoot. Shooting for history channel. It been awhile not working with you too. go there feed mosquito too... poor beautiful leg i have :( Went back studio after that.. Unpack and also to paint studio.. Had a long chat with mark and also dinner at Thai resturant.. And! I REALLY LOVE DRINKiNG COFFEE! Especially from the coffee machine! Love it! I will save up money and buy!

Omg! I am spending quite a bit of money on my itouch accessories.. Anway, dear readers if u need any iPhone to iPod touch or any apple stuff let me know! I got lobang!! :)

downloading and installing Aion... jason and mark is so in it now... as usual like blackshot!!

tomorrow fliming in studio with HOODS :) will be a fun and enjoyable day to look ahead! hope so! but before that i will go riding as usual! I have set my goal! that's to be on podium! I will make sure... please bless me! train hard and all my hardwork will pay off!

time to go to bed... I misses vous alot.. :( it will never been a ending to me. :(

No relationship is perfect, ever. There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater. the we have for each other is bigger than these small differences. And that's the key. It's like a big pie chart, and the love in a realtionship has to be the biggest piece.

Love can make up a lot...

bon nuit
manque vous
amour vous
volonte etre la pour vous

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shouldn't me be happy?

It's an off day for me. A long weekend for me!

Went riding alone with the sun.. Such a lonely ride... Start off with a hard pace... My heart is really burning man! Ah gu laugh at me please! Wants to go back to that night... The night I drank so much in my life... Had so much rubbish from myself.. Felt so unfit man... How to win races? You are such a weakling!! Ppl are laughing at you. Stupid boy! :(

I can't control my feeling... :( I am a human being that has feelings... :( the world is round whatever we do eventually it still will come back to us one day! There's really so much things i want to tell you, but I know how much i say. Things dosen't come back so easily like what I want :( it would be a long long post!

Went sport council... Forgot to bring my watch out...how can I forgot? felt's really awkward! :( It's been awhile not doing sport massage.. Pain. Pain :( but this time isn't as painful as last few sessions. Maybe the massagers never eat enough lunch to make me cry.. Haha :P

Just realise Singapore public transport especially the mrt system is so well built and plan out! Travellig time actually cut down so much with the circle line around! Now go ssc also won't take out much time.. :) great!

Things aren't so simple when you think simple,
it's actually simple when you think it difficult.

No matter how much I have hurt and all. Is all cause by myself. the more I think the more things will lead it.. leaving it alone would really be the best solution. but i can't.. I have tried but I can't... simply can't... tomorrow will be the 1 month... :( with you everything I do I will make sure it is an 110% from me... without you everything in me is like a useless piece of me...

I really really want to return back to my usual self.. A happy mischievous boy everyday joke around.. I really want it back so badly! :( I really suffer alot :(

very soon I know you will have a new love in your life or maybe you are already on the route to a new love... everything change... time really changes each and every moments. it really passes so fast.. whatever you do i will always hope that you are happy! when you feel sorrow call me and share with me..

manque moi? volonte moi?

help!! :(

bonjour

Woke up 4.15am... Had live firing just now.. I Am so tired now.. :( ultra duper :(

Was so damn nervous during the actually shoot! :( my hands actually tremble.. :( luckily my day shoot I pass.. But miss five shots :( night shoot had only 4shots.. :( was so dissapointed after I miss the 2 shots from marksmanship... :( $200 fly away right in front of me! :(

What exactly am I thinking and looking forward or working towards? Have no idea.. I only know! Losing you is the biggest mistake I had made.. :(

Without fail every moments there will be bit and pieces of you.

National champ! I am very motivated to win! Come and support me can? seeing you will motivate me to even suffer more and attack towards my goal! Ocbc bank Singapore cycling team will win! I am sure :)

had a 20mins walk back home... no bus.. no train.. only got legs.. :(

had dinner too... dinner at 2.10am? :( breakfast?

it's 2.45am... and i still can't sleep...

Bon nuit
Manqué vous

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I will sting you!

Gets off from me! Or You will sting by me!! I am freaking not in a mood today!

It just affected me so badly!! :(

When the facts hits u, it hits you hard and leave a wound onyou! :(

Had coffee, rojak, mua chee for tea break... Regretted. Kind of sinful. :( but i just want to keep myself munching... :(

Rode with cycleworx. Alex from Giant Asia was with the group too! Legs felt really good too.... :)

tomorrow will be the ATP range... Please help me!!! :( give me strength.. :( stress... :( they something wrong up in their mind asking us to be there at 0600hrs??? what the... going to cab there man... waste time.. waste money... waste waste waste waste..... :(

after tomorrow range it will be a long weekend for me.. :) something to look forward to..

my team is flying to Jakatra on friday and be back on sunday... what a month for me... so many things going on but being left out.... :( will you stand by me??? Console me???

days are just passing by quickly... 3 more days will be a month... :( I really hope I am still sleeping in this dream and wake up soon when everything is going to turn back normal and fine... :(

do vous encore amour moi?

somethings need to be done... A do list!!!

register National Champs race
do up the bike bag
change my appoinment date
book appointment with SSC
... lots more....

what a post for me.. so many sad face :(

Vraiment manqué te lots
bon nuit

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Tired! :( help :(

Slept less than 3hours and off to riding this morning!!! :(

Morning was quite a good start... Rode with joyriders halfway.... Had a Nice sprint finish :) off to camp and volunteer to go kranji camp to take out sighting for servicing.... Lobang for me :) afternoon back to checking of our tankeeesss... By then, I was already very tired... Half died :( Had a power nap half an hour before fall out.. my friends told me that they call, shouted, yelled at me to wake me up, but there's was no answer or reaction back from me... This shows that I am really ultra duper tired!! :(

It's A crazy day for me! :(

Arrive too early for my driving lesson ... Waited for 30mins :( Feeling very tired as usual... Wants to take a nap in the toliet but too dirty and smelly :D

I want to faster pass this coming tp test! Got lots of improvement to be made on my changig gear and parking!! Need to be more confidence! And there will be no more stress :0... :( and soon I will be able to drive my dad's van around! Has the urge to take up motorbike license too!

went Jason's place to do his itouch too... Lucky he stay near aunt's house or not :((( at this point of time I am half dying... Needs a bed and a pillow so badly :(

had fried kway mee and coffee too! Or not I am going to sleep with an empty stomach.. Thanks Jason for your treat:)

Going to sleep early tonight! Can't wait to get on bed now!!

Bon nuit
Manqué

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Monday's blue

rode to aunt's house with my sleepy mind and half boil eye opening :( sigh

I am getting tired easily nowsdays! :( sigh

my body system has already screwed up! :( sigh

things aren't working along with me... :( sigh

worry for ATP shoot this thursday... :( sigh

Sigh, sigh, sigh, sigh :( :( :( :(

something that has brighten my night... but I can't tell anyone :P It's between me and you :)
yeah!!!

got lots of things to be schedule ahead and appointment push back... lucky I have an I touch with me along to keep myself on the track with my schedules! :)

looks like I have a great influence to my camp mates on I TOUCH! haha.. more and more people getting I touch.. I think apple should commission me 1% to every customer who buy an itouch.. opps.. sorry.. I think too highly of myself.. taking back my words :D

been converting lots and tons of video into my itouch.. games too!! cycling!! need an ITOUCH 64GB) :P and talking to you (chi chi) too.. :) waiting for jason's call too for his itouch helps...

going to wake up at 4.15am tommrrow and do some riding with vincent... weather's not looking good.. may the cloulds cleared up before 4am.. so i can have a happy nice ride :)

Powerbreath time...

love turns to hate
and hate turns to love
you must love
in order to hate
and you must hate
in order to love

without hate
we won't know who we really love
without love
we won't know who we really hate

we need both
no matter what

sigh..looks like there will be more sentimental poem from me?? lol...

bon buit
affectuex toujours

Everyone has the rights to express themselves freely

had an great ride again.. broke away at ten mile junction with marcel :) last sunday was malvin this week is marcel... next week will be both of them attacking me up the hill I guess :D

washed my bike too and went on to fix the rc car.. the engine was so damn dirty and rusty.. it been awhile ever since i last touch those aeromodelling stuff.. took me sometimes to slowly strip the whole engine... after all the hardwork and all went down to the carpark and try starting.. it took me quite sometime to get the engine started... I am so rusty in all this engine stuff.. but nothing in impossible to me! :) got it started.. next is to tune the engine... and again took me quite some time to get evetything tuned up! and there it goes! it's running on the road! :P

tidying up my room was the most difficult part.. crack my brain... mop the whole house too.. :) I am a good boy! :)

I am so upset at 7.41pm!!! :( it actually affected my whole evening... I know I shouldn't be but it just... why are we human beings so selfish, why must our life be full of our selfishness!!! I HATE IT! soon i accepted the facts eventually...

No matter how you would want to think or look at it... you will always be my sunshine who brighten up my days, when it is raining you will be my umbrella sheltering me and be accompanying me listening to my sorrow..

love could be soft and warm
love CAN be hard and cold as it grows
you think it is a everlasting
then you think it was never there
love CAN change you forever,

bon buit
manque te
amour

Good start of the day!

it's been a long while not riding with cycleworx. few months or years??? haha :P rode with them this morning. enjoy myself! Ah gu and Kee ming rode too.. the whole ride was filled with our crappy jokes and laughter.. rode to mt faber, nus, west coast, ntu, lim chu kang, mandia. it's been very long not climbing mt faber, nus and ntu for me.. lucky not too bad.. :p

Okay I guess I am not going to register the tri factor ITT...

and O NO!!! National Champ this month?? :( it means I am far far away from training!! :( Help :( Please give me strength. anyways, this year no matter what I am going to make sure OCBC team be on top 1 podium! Haha.. say say only :) say is easier than action taken. nice right? but I am going to make sure this is done! the more they attack the more I will even attack :)

went to my friend house to collect his RC engine powered car. I have always wanted to play this hobby... but too expensive :P looks like those hobbies i am in are expensive:D can't wait for tmw!!

after collected the car went to studio and enjoy coffee! and played with raymond's camera.. help kee ming jailbreak at the same time... love changeling stuff! more to come please?? haha! I am waiting for my dad to come fetch me! :D

downloading games for ang kee ming now... I am so so dead tired.. plan to breakaway again tommrrow! wash my bicycle, fix up the car, listen to music, wash iron man.

Yawns..... bu ke ki le.. koon.... bye...

bon nuit
amour

te sont toujours sur mon esprit

on duty today. eat, sleep, duty... simple life... I have an issue on sleeping!! I didn't know that I am so tired till everywhere is like a sleeping place to me!

today was a mono intake for 42SAR. cars coming in and out. family and girlfriends seeing their loves one entering NS.. today really bought me back to my BMT times where my mummy and daddy send me in tekong. though you wasn't around with them sending me in but I know you was with me at all times. your soul sat deeply in my heart :)

when I ORD that day, volonte te etre la avec moi?

next month will be my 1 year solider annivesary. just before 4 days from your birthday.. times flies so fast and things around us are changing too.. :(

Hasn't been training much.. :( I am feeling so gulity over it... :( been busy and lazy too... I am seriously in need of advice weather should i take part in the tri-bike??? anyone recomendation??? it's on the 20june... 2 more weeks from now... should i?? race and also treat it as a training? 3more days to closing registration...

Everyday there will be bit and pieces of you forming up in my mind.

bon nuit
manque vous

Unexpected

previous post i ask when will i ever see a rainbow again? YOU KNOW WHAT!! on my way home from camp just now. weather was nice cloulds everywhere and in front of me the " rainbow" appear! My day end happily! :)

next month will be National Road Championship! I really hope I can do my very best and achieve something! I must start my training ASAP! NO MORE EXCUSES! got to sleep early and wake up early! divert any of my attention just to cycling!

te volonte etre la pour moi?

You set your goal and you want to achieve your goal in life, you will have to be fully commited in the goal!

by Ah Huat! :D

Recently my appetite grown bigger! Been eating non-stop :) can't stop at all! I just love eating especially when there's nothing i can do and think of my next divertion will be FOOD! :) haha.. die... when you guys come back from all over the world you will see a FAT AH HUAT! :D

Been very very ultra duper tired too. whenever there a chair for me I will grab it and sit and the moment I close my eyes. there's goes me taking a POWER NAP! haha:)

it's 10.10pm I am going to sleep now! have been sleeping very lately like 12, 1 pm last 2 weeks. got to go back my usual 10pm bed time! and wake up early for training!

bon nuit
sweet dreams

Untitle

have no idea how i should start? i have so much things to blog but...

woke up this morning at 8plus... regretted, I should have continue sleeping. slept for less than 6 hours... how to recover??

watch IP MAN 2 at home too. nice storyline. I Miss filming man. can't waiit for weekends to arrive!

I really hope tommrrow will be a nicer day to look forward for me. I don't want to be an emo boy. I don't want to be left out by any of my friends too.

Every weekend is the only time I am looking forward to as I can ride with my bicycle and after that to studio and relax and enjoy the COFFEE! Recently I have been so addicted to the coffee. to my surpise I had 5 cup of KOPI-O yesterday. :) nice!

when will i ever see a rainbow again? (random remark)

rode with cycleworx just now. hmmm.... I just want to ride around the world with my bicycle! going to come up my training plan for national champ. Anyway, this month there will be tri-factor bike race. 40km ITT.. :) don't know weahter to take part?? anyone can advice me? haha:P

yawns i am so sleepy... going to bed soon! tommrrow another day in camp... as usual.. suddenly i am craving for a cup of coffee before i go to bed...

anyway check out my team blog. www.ocbcbanksingaporecyclingteam.blogspot.com. just updated.

volonte vous manquer moi?

Sentimental

been to a few places lately :(


Walking down the path we used to. Again it bought me back.

It's been really tough trying not to think back. but each an little part of singapore form back memories. it's everywhere in my mind.

It's been rather a bad day for me. had live firing. SHOOT, RESHOOT, RE-RESHOOT, RE-RE-RESHOOT!!! FAIL, FAIL, FAIL,FAIL... what's wrong?

trying harder and harder.

sleeping now.. i am so tired.. my eyes is closing anytime..


bonne nuit
Manque que Vonus

Believe in me - Demi Lovato
The best day - Taylor swift