Why am I still doing this? Because to me "love is everything that we cracked up to be. That's why people like me are so cynical(selffish) about it. It is worth fighting for and risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you will tend to risk even more!"
5days have past. Have been reading through lots of mails, messages and seeing photos of us.. Thinking back of those things lead me to so much good memories and moments that we share together despite me giving you hard time and yet you still giving in putting so much love into me. I know i should have treasure you from the being and not now beacuse things went upside down. I really hope that's a chance that we can still sit down and talk. Furthermore now things even refelcted badly on us. I sincerely apologise on what i had did to you and your family members for the past few days.
Thinking back on what i have done. I realised so much that I did was so wrong, thinking of myself only, being so selfish and doing things so impatiently. I should stay on the path of waiting patiently for your reply or by now we will be talking happily to each other on our mobile. But no matter how much I say now it's over. I really want to have you back and allow this realtionship grow even stronger than before and treat it as a learning experinence to me! Do you think I will have the chance getting you back?
I really hate myself doing those shits and hurting you so much. Why can't I just wait for that few days that you agree to? Why am i so rebellions and keep thinking my ways of revolting things in us harming our realtionship! (Do you think you should settle things in your ways and not allowing her to breathe and think? Don't say that you love her and miss her! If you really do why didn't you let her have a room to breathe? You are just being selfish because you think you love her. What happen has already happpen and you deserve it yourself!) I am so angry with myself!
What realtionship means to you? Making her upset? Controlling her? Trapping her inside? Giving grumpy attitude towards her? Why? Why can't you do things diffently? Why must you now regret and now start straghtening your thoughts and hoping for her return? Do you think she will?
Loving someone is to let her be happy on what she is doing, giving her space, treating each other well, putting passion into the love relationship, sharing each other burden, taking care of each other, knowing each other well and supporting each other as well.
Till this point. Why am I still asking for you to be back beside me?Because I still have you deeply sitted down in my heart. And Love is like a volin. you may stop plucking now and then, but the string remains forever. People will always make mistakes and change to be better!
Come back to me?
Baby, I love you still.
Goodnights!
Note of the day:
Love dosen't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwile!
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