everthing I do I can't concentrate at all. It's wasn't me at all. I would also give 101% on what i do but now, not even 50% was cover... :( perhaps the time needed to heal is just taking too long and the environment I am in dosen't suit me at all. Sorry :(
tommrrow will be going for live firing till night man. will be a tiring day! will go to bed straight after this post!
I have no idea why am I facebooking nowdays. :P right now, finding for more games on itouch to entertain myself tommrrow.
anways, wishing my team in indonesia lucks on tommorrow TEAM TIME TRAIL. will update on how they do on our www.ocbcbanksingaporecyclingteam.blogspots.com. so stay tuned and get yourselves up-t0-date! :D
I feel so bad for not riding... :(
my wrist is starting to hurt again.. :(
Good Nights my friends
Monday, May 31, 2010
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Hello,
Morning,
had a nice ride man!!! broke away with malvin for the whole ride!! :) so shiok man. but after the ride i can feel the large amount of lactic acid forming and of course HERE COME THE CRAMP!! :( needs to do more endurance and L1,L2.L3,L4,L5,L6,L7,L8,L9,L10 pace! :P
it's a great day for me. everything went smoothly and things are slowly going back to the old path. Train and Train. Train right, Train hard and of course Train SMART!
went to art museum to shoot knockout. hikal who never fails to entertain and make ppl laugh! misses production so much :( had thai food for dinner too. awesome man. it's been awhile since i had thai food. Green curry, tom yam soup, pineapple rice, olive rice, tofu, and thai tea!
tommrow and tuesday i will be having ATP! :( waste time again. need to be ARC at 0715. holy, so early man! got to sleep now or not.....
sweet dreams.
had a nice ride man!!! broke away with malvin for the whole ride!! :) so shiok man. but after the ride i can feel the large amount of lactic acid forming and of course HERE COME THE CRAMP!! :( needs to do more endurance and L1,L2.L3,L4,L5,L6,L7,L8,L9,L10 pace! :P
it's a great day for me. everything went smoothly and things are slowly going back to the old path. Train and Train. Train right, Train hard and of course Train SMART!
went to art museum to shoot knockout. hikal who never fails to entertain and make ppl laugh! misses production so much :( had thai food for dinner too. awesome man. it's been awhile since i had thai food. Green curry, tom yam soup, pineapple rice, olive rice, tofu, and thai tea!
tommrow and tuesday i will be having ATP! :( waste time again. need to be ARC at 0715. holy, so early man! got to sleep now or not.....
sweet dreams.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Morning!
OMG!! look at the time now?
Y am I here blogging? I should be sleeping still :D going to go back and take a short POWER nap and later let's go ATTACK and BREAKAWAY! :P
blog more after I finish work tonight!
Y am I here blogging? I should be sleeping still :D going to go back and take a short POWER nap and later let's go ATTACK and BREAKAWAY! :P
blog more after I finish work tonight!
Awesome Day
went back to studio today. misses studio so much. misses the ppl over there. misses the equipment. misses everything. I want to faster finish my army...
Had a great day with HOODS production. As usual, the jokes haikal said and the clique being together turn my day around. And, Raymond let me try driving his VAN. haha. exciting. I want to faster pass my TRAFFIC POLICE TEST. 20th July... I can't wait but i still need to work very hard on my parking skills.
Tommorrw after 8.30 thosmon ride, straight i will fly back home and make my way to meet them! haha.
Yawns..
have been blogging every night till so late. is time to rest and have a great day ahead tommorrow.
Good night readers.
Sweet dreams
Had a great day with HOODS production. As usual, the jokes haikal said and the clique being together turn my day around. And, Raymond let me try driving his VAN. haha. exciting. I want to faster pass my TRAFFIC POLICE TEST. 20th July... I can't wait but i still need to work very hard on my parking skills.
Tommorrw after 8.30 thosmon ride, straight i will fly back home and make my way to meet them! haha.
Yawns..
have been blogging every night till so late. is time to rest and have a great day ahead tommorrow.
Good night readers.
Sweet dreams
Friday, May 28, 2010
Efforts and Loves
Did this just for you! hope you like it and keep it.
After 9HOURS of waiting!
What meant to be mine eventually it will come back! Is time to move on.
Loves
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Breaking down sooner or later.
will u be there for me?
Why am I trying so hard?
Why am I training so hard?
I am going to break down soon :(
Since when am I turn into a EMO person ?
Should I go with my heart?
Why am i asking so many question?
ruin my own life and future. it's been a a tough journey this month :( I need your motivation badly!
seeing my team mates leaving for races and training really me envy and upset. when is my turn?
I really need you to be beside me now!
CAN U DON'T BE SO WEAK? WAKE UP AND FACE IT! BE YOURSELF AND RETURN BACK TO THE OLD AH HUAT! :(
go and sleep now! 4 more hour u will need to wake up and go for training.. Planning to do a very very long ride later. kill time and train strong and divert my misses? aiyoh. JUST MOVE ON AND DON'T THINK SO MUCH. she will come back when it's time.
nights.
Why am I trying so hard?
Why am I training so hard?
I am going to break down soon :(
Since when am I turn into a EMO person ?
Should I go with my heart?
Why am i asking so many question?
ruin my own life and future. it's been a a tough journey this month :( I need your motivation badly!
seeing my team mates leaving for races and training really me envy and upset. when is my turn?
I really need you to be beside me now!
CAN U DON'T BE SO WEAK? WAKE UP AND FACE IT! BE YOURSELF AND RETURN BACK TO THE OLD AH HUAT! :(
go and sleep now! 4 more hour u will need to wake up and go for training.. Planning to do a very very long ride later. kill time and train strong and divert my misses? aiyoh. JUST MOVE ON AND DON'T THINK SO MUCH. she will come back when it's time.
nights.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Deep thoughts
What a close shave or i would be cleaning up my wound now! As usual, day by day... Emo and Emo :(
anyway went for cycleworx ride with the roval wheel. gosh, it a fanstanic wheel man. Love it.
I am so tired :( Day by day i m feeling even weaker and weaker. I want to grow back strong again.. I want to go to bed now.
Good nights and sweet dreams. :)
anyway went for cycleworx ride with the roval wheel. gosh, it a fanstanic wheel man. Love it.
I am so tired :( Day by day i m feeling even weaker and weaker. I want to grow back strong again.. I want to go to bed now.
Good nights and sweet dreams. :)
Monday, May 24, 2010
Today
Our 1 year 8month. It's not short yet not long. But being with you really make the whole relatioship feel longer.
Am on night guard duty tonight :( it means that I can't blog and see updates on you:( feel like crying so badly. It been close to 2 week after the break up. The month with so much ups and downs. Sorry to say this but I really HATE it!
Alright it time for me to go camp now! Everyday will be a glommy day without your smile or presence :(
Will blog more on wed night after my ride.
Good morning and Good nights to you (baby)
Loves
Am on night guard duty tonight :( it means that I can't blog and see updates on you:( feel like crying so badly. It been close to 2 week after the break up. The month with so much ups and downs. Sorry to say this but I really HATE it!
Alright it time for me to go camp now! Everyday will be a glommy day without your smile or presence :(
Will blog more on wed night after my ride.
Good morning and Good nights to you (baby)
Loves
Feeling?
as usual, a emo day for me still. SILENT has always been following me everyday. waiting is the key to success?
Love is patient, it is not rude, not self-seeking nor easily angered. Love always trusts, hope and perseveres. Too much bugging can break the realationship. How long is the wait? I have no answer.
Will you forgive me?
If I am a doraeman, I will bring time back.
I tell myself to be a happy boy and will bring you happiness!
had a nice chat with Chichi = calvin.. It's been a long while since he left for france. I miss you. I miss cycling, playing, talking rubbish with you!
had a talk with tim too. I miss you guys.
good nights & sweet dreams
I love you, Baby.
Love is patient, it is not rude, not self-seeking nor easily angered. Love always trusts, hope and perseveres. Too much bugging can break the realationship. How long is the wait? I have no answer.
Will you forgive me?
If I am a doraeman, I will bring time back.
I tell myself to be a happy boy and will bring you happiness!
had a nice chat with Chichi = calvin.. It's been a long while since he left for france. I miss you. I miss cycling, playing, talking rubbish with you!
had a talk with tim too. I miss you guys.
good nights & sweet dreams
I love you, Baby.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Everything is WORTH trying!
hello,
Here blogging again. Finally! I hear her voice again:) BABY! ( I MISS YOUR VOICE SO MUCH). You brighten up my day! Despite this morning dizzling I still ride to your house and deliver the breakfast to you. it really shows that how much you mean to me! Everything i do for you is so worth doing it. I really hope tommrrow you will drink the tea i made for you. I am so heart broken to know you are down with soft throat and flu. I hope the tea i made for you will helps you get well soon. Action will always make the biggest move afterall.
It's been a raining season. And I really hope that you take care yourself and faster get well! I wants your warm hug so badly and I miss it so much! I want to have it back.
It's kind of cracking my brain thinking how i should write in this post. I think my brain is not functioning normally. Pictures is always the most powerful thing to describe how you feel.
A picture leads to a thousand of path. Seeing you happy will always make me happy!
Good Nights
sweet dreams
Here blogging again. Finally! I hear her voice again:) BABY! ( I MISS YOUR VOICE SO MUCH). You brighten up my day! Despite this morning dizzling I still ride to your house and deliver the breakfast to you. it really shows that how much you mean to me! Everything i do for you is so worth doing it. I really hope tommrrow you will drink the tea i made for you. I am so heart broken to know you are down with soft throat and flu. I hope the tea i made for you will helps you get well soon. Action will always make the biggest move afterall.
It's been a raining season. And I really hope that you take care yourself and faster get well! I wants your warm hug so badly and I miss it so much! I want to have it back.
It's kind of cracking my brain thinking how i should write in this post. I think my brain is not functioning normally. Pictures is always the most powerful thing to describe how you feel.
A picture leads to a thousand of path. Seeing you happy will always make me happy!
Good Nights
sweet dreams
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Friday, May 14, 2010
Love is like a war easy to begin but hard to end!
Why am I still doing this? Because to me "love is everything that we cracked up to be. That's why people like me are so cynical(selffish) about it. It is worth fighting for and risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you will tend to risk even more!"
5days have past. Have been reading through lots of mails, messages and seeing photos of us.. Thinking back of those things lead me to so much good memories and moments that we share together despite me giving you hard time and yet you still giving in putting so much love into me. I know i should have treasure you from the being and not now beacuse things went upside down. I really hope that's a chance that we can still sit down and talk. Furthermore now things even refelcted badly on us. I sincerely apologise on what i had did to you and your family members for the past few days.
Thinking back on what i have done. I realised so much that I did was so wrong, thinking of myself only, being so selfish and doing things so impatiently. I should stay on the path of waiting patiently for your reply or by now we will be talking happily to each other on our mobile. But no matter how much I say now it's over. I really want to have you back and allow this realtionship grow even stronger than before and treat it as a learning experinence to me! Do you think I will have the chance getting you back?
I really hate myself doing those shits and hurting you so much. Why can't I just wait for that few days that you agree to? Why am i so rebellions and keep thinking my ways of revolting things in us harming our realtionship! (Do you think you should settle things in your ways and not allowing her to breathe and think? Don't say that you love her and miss her! If you really do why didn't you let her have a room to breathe? You are just being selfish because you think you love her. What happen has already happpen and you deserve it yourself!) I am so angry with myself!
What realtionship means to you? Making her upset? Controlling her? Trapping her inside? Giving grumpy attitude towards her? Why? Why can't you do things diffently? Why must you now regret and now start straghtening your thoughts and hoping for her return? Do you think she will?
Loving someone is to let her be happy on what she is doing, giving her space, treating each other well, putting passion into the love relationship, sharing each other burden, taking care of each other, knowing each other well and supporting each other as well.
Till this point. Why am I still asking for you to be back beside me?Because I still have you deeply sitted down in my heart. And Love is like a volin. you may stop plucking now and then, but the string remains forever. People will always make mistakes and change to be better!
Come back to me?
Baby, I love you still.
Goodnights!
Note of the day:
Love dosen't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwile!
5days have past. Have been reading through lots of mails, messages and seeing photos of us.. Thinking back of those things lead me to so much good memories and moments that we share together despite me giving you hard time and yet you still giving in putting so much love into me. I know i should have treasure you from the being and not now beacuse things went upside down. I really hope that's a chance that we can still sit down and talk. Furthermore now things even refelcted badly on us. I sincerely apologise on what i had did to you and your family members for the past few days.
Thinking back on what i have done. I realised so much that I did was so wrong, thinking of myself only, being so selfish and doing things so impatiently. I should stay on the path of waiting patiently for your reply or by now we will be talking happily to each other on our mobile. But no matter how much I say now it's over. I really want to have you back and allow this realtionship grow even stronger than before and treat it as a learning experinence to me! Do you think I will have the chance getting you back?
I really hate myself doing those shits and hurting you so much. Why can't I just wait for that few days that you agree to? Why am i so rebellions and keep thinking my ways of revolting things in us harming our realtionship! (Do you think you should settle things in your ways and not allowing her to breathe and think? Don't say that you love her and miss her! If you really do why didn't you let her have a room to breathe? You are just being selfish because you think you love her. What happen has already happpen and you deserve it yourself!) I am so angry with myself!
What realtionship means to you? Making her upset? Controlling her? Trapping her inside? Giving grumpy attitude towards her? Why? Why can't you do things diffently? Why must you now regret and now start straghtening your thoughts and hoping for her return? Do you think she will?
Loving someone is to let her be happy on what she is doing, giving her space, treating each other well, putting passion into the love relationship, sharing each other burden, taking care of each other, knowing each other well and supporting each other as well.
Till this point. Why am I still asking for you to be back beside me?Because I still have you deeply sitted down in my heart. And Love is like a volin. you may stop plucking now and then, but the string remains forever. People will always make mistakes and change to be better!
Come back to me?
Baby, I love you still.
Goodnights!
Note of the day:
Love dosen't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwile!
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